Servant of Allah(swt).♥

		Random Awesome. Hajar is the name. A MuslimI am,and proud of it. I choose not to deny my humanity but embrace it. I'm weird but approachable. I don't believe in karma but I believe in Qada & Qadar. ♥A nurse,who will always try to satisfy the hearts of her patients.

Rocket. A blog with full of nonsense.(: Deeper Conversation. Escape. \| Zee&Haj Tumblr! \| Quote-Book \| Ask Me Anything \| Zee \| Irawr \| Lilah \| Lynn \| Syazi \| Hazman \| Adik Shazz \| Huds Twinny \| Suella \| Faddy \| Haziee \| Na-Dee-Yah \| Fake \| Yaya \| Iqah bella \| Feetz \| archives July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 credits Design: doughnutcrazy Icon: morphine_kissed Do credit accordingly if you changed the icon.		Already Over. My life has been in topsy-turvy nowadays. And now,I'm lost. I've lost everything. I'm a loser,yes I am. I may look strong on the outside,but actually,I'm weak in the heart. These tears of joy will end up as tears of sadness. I'm having a never ending argument with my dad,and I lost my love. Yes,we made a decision to be apart from each other. I don't ever want it,really,but he wants to be away,so I just let him go. To be honest,I want to make things better,but..I guess,this is the best. No doubt,I still love him and care for him. In my mind,I kept thinking,"Is he doing well? Has he eaten?",these thoughts keep running in this small brain. One of my colleague asked me,do I really have the heart to move on after these 4 years? All I can reply to her is,if it's not meant to be,then I can't force fate. I even told them,that for now,I'm shutting my doors for anyone,and only opening my heart to Allah. Insya Allah. I miss him,really. When I sat down,I would suddenly think back of all our memories. I miss him hugging me. But..sigh. Only Allah knows how I feel. Nevertheless,I will still pray for his safety and well being. He's a great guy,and I've never regretted loving him. Ya Allah,make my heart stronger,and please bring happiness to his heart. He needs it. Bring him out of cruelness,and bring him into the light. Ya Rabb,please always keep him safe. Amin~ :'( Labels: A Beautiful Mess. Posted on: Wednesday, September 14, 2011 Posted at: 7:47 PM