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Love From The Above.

Salam. <3
Yes,I'm back from being gone.
Where have I been? Well,trying to find the light in my life.
And,alhamdulilah,I'm getting better day by day.
With the love from my mother,my closest cousin,girl friends,and especially from Allah,I managed to regain back my faith.
Yes,there are still some problems within,but I know Allah,will never make me face it alone.
I've been quite a temperamental person lately,but slowly I'll try to get out from that character.
Because being in that attitude,gets me nowhere.
Like stated in the Qur'an:"Verily,with hardship comes ease",and I'm trying to live by that sentence.
So,now,I'm concentrating on doing more good deeds,to be a better muslimah,achieving my dreams to be a photographer and..to go Mecca with my mother someday.
Insya Allah,I can do it. (:
Okay,got to go now.

PS: Alhamdulilah,Allah has answered my prayers.

He's happy now and he's safe.
I'm glad he's doing fine.
Dear Lord,bless this child with love.
xoxo

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Gone.

I'll be on hiatus for the moment.
Need some fresh air.
But,insya Allah,I will still be active on my 2nd blog.
Put in me in your doa's okay,dear brothers & sisters.
Hopefully I get to find the right path for myself.
Assalammua'laikum.
<3

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Alhamdullilah.

After a few breakdowns,alhamdulillah,I manage to stand on my two feet again.
And you know what,these tough times,brings me more closer to Allah.
My faith grew stronger and I'm more in love with His grace.
What they say it's true.
No matter what you're going through,He will always be there for you. Subhanallah.
Nowadays,I feel satisfied in getting the answers for the purpose of my life.
Yes,I may still have some unsettled problems here and there,but I know,with His guidance,insya Allah,I will try to sort it out one by one.
Now I understand the love from God. I feel it.
Thank you Allah,for your blessings.
(':

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Already Over.

My life has been in topsy-turvy nowadays. And now,I'm lost.
I've lost everything.
I'm a loser,yes I am.
I may look strong on the outside,but actually,I'm weak in the heart.
These tears of joy will end up as tears of sadness.
I'm having a never ending argument with my dad,and I lost my love.
Yes,we made a decision to be apart from each other.
I don't ever want it,really,but he wants to be away,so I just let him go.
To be honest,I want to make things better,but..I guess,this is the best.
No doubt,I still love him and care for him.
In my mind,I kept thinking,"Is he doing well? Has he eaten?",these thoughts keep running in this small brain.
One of my colleague asked me,do I really have the heart to move on after these 4 years?
All I can reply to her is,if it's not meant to be,then I can't force fate.
I even told them,that for now,I'm shutting my doors for anyone,and only opening my heart to Allah. Insya Allah.
I miss him,really. When I sat down,I would suddenly think back of all our memories.
I miss him hugging me.
But..sigh. Only Allah knows how I feel.
Nevertheless,I will still pray for his safety and well being.
He's a great guy,and I've never regretted loving him.
Ya Allah,make my heart stronger,and please bring happiness to his heart.
He needs it. Bring him out of cruelness,and bring him into the light.
Ya Rabb,please always keep him safe.
Amin~
:'(

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Why?

My parents are shouting,bickering in the kitchen right now.
You wanna know about what?
About hari raya house visits. Lame isn't it?
And my dad keep saying,"that's what I meant! that's what I meant!".
I hate my annual leave. Seriously. I don't enjoy it.
I've been crying alot within these 2 weeks.
And my dad,he's a stuck up.
Forgive me Allah,for my words,but I couldn't take it anymore.
His ego is so big until he has the guts to shout at my mum.
Why are these happening?
Why??
:'(

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Twin Brother's Birthday!

To my twinny,Muhammad Syazani,
Happy Birthday! :D
Somebody is a big man now. Hehs.
And 10 days after this,you're gonna be in NS soon.
*Saddened* Lol.
Have an awesome day alright?
Hope to bump into you somewhere again. Hee!
xoxo

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Doubt In Your Faith.

To err is human,that's what people would quote.
I'm not perfect.
But..I just understand why you have to use those vulgar words.
I know,those words in the photo may hurt you,but it wasn't my intention at all.
You get moody without hearing my explanation.
Anyway,you don't need it right? I'm full of excuses for you.
I'm not gonna hate you. I'm not God to judge.
But if you hate me,so be it.
I won't understand you,that's how you gonna tell me.
I've loved you for who you are and have never regretted it.
Only God knows how I feel about you. How much I care.
Sigh.
Everybody has their own ego.
I'm exhausted from crying but still,these tears won't stop falling.
Story of my life.

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