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Maher Zain is coming to Singapore!

And tomorrow,they are selling the tickets for Maher Zain's concert.
Boo hoo. I want one! T.T
He's one of my inspiring idols,it's a must for me to go to his concert!
Darn,hopefully,I'll have enough money to buy one.
Hopefully.
:(

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Happy Pills.

A day with girlfriends is all you need to distress. ♥
Thanks for the hugs.
Appreciate it alot.
And Wati,I wish you were here to join us.
:(

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Write The Letter In Teary Ink.

Yesterday,it happened once more.
And,it was just,for me,such a small thing.
Then you threw your tantrum at me.
It seems like I'm a punching bag for you,huh?
I told you,I was just joking and you couldn't believe me.
But,there was this part that I couldn't handle,you said that I've changed.
Define the term "change" on me. I want to know.
Maybe I'm abit sensitive now but the "change" part,I don't know what you're talking about.

Listen,if I've change:
-I would have date another guy behind your back.
-I would just ignore you when you say you love me.
-I wouldn't agree to meet you when you say you miss me.
-I wouldn't pray almost every single night,for God to strengthen our relationship.
-I would just leave you when you need someone during your darkest moment.
Have I ever done anything like that to you?
Never. Yes,never.
I even told my sis that hopefully,someday,we would be the future,Mr. & Mrs.
But...I thought wrong.
The "change" word,you've been saying it many times too.
So,I've change,right? That's what you think isn't it?
Well,thanks for thinking that way.
You don't know how many tears,I've cried for you.
You don't know what sacrifices I've made for you.
You only saw the negative side of me,and that's sad.
Sorry to make these 3 years relationship,a wasting of time for you.
Get a better girl.
I don't deserve you. Or maybe,you don't deserve a person like me.
Just let me be a loner.

Now,I understood,why I couldn't be too kind and soft hearted because in the end,we'll be step on.
O Allah,why these things keep happening? Why?
I just feel like hiding myself from the face of the world.
I had enough. Really.
I can't tolerate anymore.
I'm losing hope and faith.
I give up.

:'(

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Where's my Nur?

I don't know why recently,I've been feeling cranky and quite agitated by many things.
I tend to get angry too fast,that's just not me.
Maybe,I need a time for myself.
Need to be away from work and everything. Just a short getaway.
Sigh.
O Allah,give me your guidance and light.
I'm still weak as ever.
But I'm always thankful that You are always here to change this frown into a smile.
Hopefully,I'll regain the hope and faith within me again.
:'(

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La La La La La.

And so,like I promised,I'll update on what happened during the last weekend. It was totally amazing. One of my cousin,named Muhammad Zaki,get married. Haha. I like it when these marriages happen because I love family gatherings.
Abang Zaki looked so dashing in his malay traditional clothes as he always dress up in his hip-hop kind of style. Lol.
Then,when the day is slowly ending,it was a sad timing for us.
We,cousins,started to give each other tight hugs before we leave. Aww.
To Abang Zaki & Kak Lynn,congratulations to the both of you. May Allah bless your marriage with more happiness and love. Amin. (:

Oh,and,I really look like a kiddo on that day.
I guess nobody would believe that I'm turning 21 soon.
Haha.
Oh well.
^ ^

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Sorry.

I apologise if I have to tell you the truth,but sometimes facts have to be spoken.
I love you but I love my religion too.
It's not only you who is stuck in the middle,I'm included in this situation too.
Face it,we are two different worlds.
You might not think about it because you are not ready for it yet,but do you know that I keep thinking about this everytime?
And when I pray about us,I couldn't help it but cry.
It's not that I wanna rush you,I just want to know where we stand.
We are going to be 4 years together,and I need to know your thoughts.
I don't want you to convert just because of me,but I want you to love Islam like I do.
It's hard for you,I understand.
If you think this religion thing is enough for you,then I won't force.
It's up to you dear.
I'm sorry.

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Dear God.

Luckily,Allah is there is always here with me to make me stronger.
All praises to Him.
Amin.

Oh,soon,I'll update about the fun I had during the weekend.
It was totally awesome.
(:

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One Of The Best Girl.

Alright,this is a girl named Hannah.
She works somesort like a researcher.
So,everytime,if there are any of our patient who's eligible for her research,we will call her.
Why am I typing all of these about her?
Well,it's her last day working there tomorrow,and it makes me sad.
Eventhough I may know her only for a few months,but it feels like we have known each other for years.
She has an amazing personality,and a wonderful character.
Everytime I lose hope about some stuffs,she'll be there to talk me out.
And she never fails to give that tight hug when she sees me.
Oh my,gonna miss her.
To dearest Hannah,thanks for the friendship that you had given me.
Your words of encouragement,I shall never forget them.
Stay awesome,and hopefully,we get to hangout with each other someday.
Lots of love. ^ ^

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Talking To The Moon.

Bit by bit,I'm learning to be a better person. (:
And it's a nice feeling that there are poeple who recognize it.
One of my colleague just now,while we were sitting down,chatting with each other,I then disturb her by saying,"Come on,let's talk about how depressing my life is". Haha. Epic.
She laughed too.
After that,she said this to me,"From the stories that you've shared with me,I can see that,you're a very nice person hajar. And a very nice sister/daughter."
I was stunned,shocked by her lovely words. I just smiled.

And just now,I was texting one of my god brother.
He told me his problems and how bad he feel on the way he treat his mother.
So,I tried my best to push him Give the strength for him to stay on.
At last,he was all cheered up.
Then he told me this,"Kakak,you have a very kind soul,you know that?".
Masya Allah. I smiled widely when I read that text.
Well,all I can say,all praises to Allah,for creating me.
He's the one who has given me such a blissful gift.
Teehee. (:

Oh,ya,right now,I can't stop listening to a song by Bruno Mars called "Talking To The Moon".
Amazing lyrics,such a nice slow song.
I'm in love with it.
^ ^

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Whoops.

Since afternoon,I've been reading a girl's blog about her love for Islam and Allah S.W.T.
I was totally inspired by her. Really.
The more I read her blog,the more I feel so ashamed about myself.
Because,so far,I've not been a good muslimah,and I didn't do much good deeds.
But still,I'm trying my best,to live up to Allah's expectation.
We are not going to live in this earth for long,so might as well we stand up to our faith.
(:

How have I been?
Alhamdulilah. Everything has been good.
I'm trying my best to stand out from negativity and embrace positivity.
At last,me and her text each other.
We confess out what has been bothering us then,we try to forgive and forget.
You know who you are my friend. ^ ^
Oh,things are good with him too.
Yesterday,I bought him a birthday present.Fred Perry shirt baby! Haha.
It was totally awesome.
All praises to Allah,for his blessings.
Teehee. <3

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I Always End Up Hurting You.

I always have this fear in my heart.

Not being good enough in everything or for anyone.

But basically,not being good enough for my loved ones.

Overall,it's my fault. Seriously.

I keep hurting people,and disappointing them.

I'm not fit to have those people in my life. They don't deserve me.

And mum,I'm sorry if it's hard for you to take care of your children's feelings.

Yet again,I try not to let you down,but still,it happens.

Maybe,this is karma.

Or Allah is trying to teach me a lesson because I've not been a good muslimah.

O Allah,I deserve this from you.

I understand I've not been faithful towards You and I accept the blame.

To all the people I've hurt,I apologise for my mistakes.

Please forgive me.

I tried to be all that you need,

Tried not to ever let you down,

Still I can see it in your eyes,

Not good enough.

:'(

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Falling To Pieces.

It's like I'm losing her.
I don't feel her anymore.
Dear friend,I miss you.

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