Silent Screams.
I discussed with my mummy about my future just now. I told her about my dreams to take up diploma in psychology. But suddenly,mum stares at me. She asked me,"If you get this diploma,you will quit your job is it?". And my answer was yes. After that,she said something that puts a big impact on me. She said maybe her contract is ending soon and she would not know if she'll continue working. And if I quit my job in the future,confirm we will have financial difficulty. Me,as a daughter,would totally want her to retired and just rest at home. But,imagine,if I would take the diploma course and quit my job,confirm my mum will hold all the burden. It's not fair for her. She's too old to be working already and she needs her rest. Eventhough,she told me she doesn't mind if I want to further studies,I still can't let her work alone.
Oh God,what shall I do? It's between my dreams and my mum. It's so complicated. I just don't know what to do. Dear Allah,give me an answer. Make me strong. :'(


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