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Raise Your Hands And Pray.

Today,it's my brother-in-law's,Muhammad Hafiz,birthday. So old already! Hahaha. But sadly,I still haven't bought for him any present. Sigh. I owe you one brother! (: Anyway,happy birthday to you. You're the best big brother ever! Eventhough we had our misunderstandings,but still,I can't hate you because I already treated you like a part of my flesh and blood. So,hope you'll be bless with happiness always and must take good care of my sister aite! Haha. Ily. (:

In how many hours more,2010 is ending soon. Damn,it's very fast isn't it? It felt like yesterday was only 1 January 2010. Wow. But I don't know if I'm looking forward for next year,I mean I'm scared the same mistakes will happen again. Nevertheless,I'm still hoping for a new start. I don't want to be that silly little girl who always falls into her own dark hole. I want to be the one who has a brave heart to face it all. Insya Allah,I can make it happen in 2011. (:

Oh,by the way,this a Sim made by my bestie,Zee. I look so hardcore! Haha! She totally knew how I would like to look in real life. Hehe. I love the hair especially the colour. I want to dye my hair like that can? Please. Lol. And maybe,I'm gonna cut like that too. Get a new look for myself. Hee. See what my mother says,I'm gonna ask her for permission. Hehehe. :P

So,humans,Happy New Year.
Don't get drunk tonight,but read some prayers for a better year ahead. Hehe.
Take care of yourself earthlings.
^ ^

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Like Seriously?

I was suppose to update about this yesterday,but I was too tired. Hehe. So,boyfriend,this is for u. :) Yesterday,we get to meet each other. Like finally,after a month! Do you know how hard it is for me to not meet him for that long? I was going nuts missing him I'm telling ya'll. Anyway,we met at Sunplaza Park because we just want to chill. As I sat down beside him,I hugged him straight. Haha. It was nice to feel his arms around me once more. Then we chatted,joked around with each other and boyfriend just can't stop pinching my cheeks. Lol. Overall,eventhough we only get to meet each for awhile,it was worth it. To be with him on our 40th monthsary yesterday,was the best moment of my life. :)

These few days,me and my sis just couldn't stop watching videos on Youtube about the Illuminati. Seriously,it's very interesting to know how are they like. Basically,this Illuminati group consist of 13 people who,they say,are the worshipers of Satan. They have been here for centuries,but not all people realize it. Now,these freaks,are trying to brainwash people's mind through media,music,anywhere at all. They are trying to make us forget our own religion,and embrace satanism. Ew! No way! I would not worship anything else except Allah S.W.T. To you earthlings out there,please be careful when you listen to all the musics. You can't never know what's the hidden message behind every song. So,spread the word. Stop Illuminati from spreading to make the world a better place. <3

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Breathe Again.

Hey bloggie. Did you miss me? I miss you effing much. I miss pouring out all my different emotions to you.
Now that I'm back on track,I'm not gonna stop talking to you. :)
How have I been so far? Recovering from all the bad moments that has been happening to me recently.
And to add on to my worse scenarios,I'm falling sick too. But today,my body is recovering from it though.
About the bad moments,usually it happens at my workplace.
Maybe I'm having some hormonal changes or I'm too sensitive,I don't know.
Anyways,I started to become all grumpy and began to brokedown everyday at work.
One of my colleague heard me crying at that time,and he asked what happened. I just don't feel like sharing it.
Because even myself,I don't know what's wrong.
I throw stuffs,I hit the doors and bang them hard,even my friend was afraid of me.
She knew that's totally not me but she left me alone.
Then,a few days after that,I came to become like a 'normal person' again.
I don't like to be angry always,I mean who does right?
So,I try to hang around with my colleagues whom I'm close with again and regain my cheerfulness. And alhamdulilah,now I'm feeling much better.

And last Friday,I was suddenly attacked by a spiking high fever.
I've got no mood to eat and drink,or even change my clothes.
All I want to do is lie down on my bed and do nothing. It was devastating.
The next day,mum and sis forbids me to go to work.
I was having the chills for the whole day and the migraine was killing me.
I keep having that nausea feeling but didn't vomit though.
The doctor gave me 2 days of MC but still,it wasn't enough for me.
I had to extend it because I was still feeling giddy and weak.
So far today,I felt abit better. Just that I still couldn't eat alot that's all.
Hopefully,I'm strong again to come to work.

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Help Me Heal These Wounds.

Seriously,I'm totally pissed off today.
First and foremost,it's about work.
I don't know why,suddenly,I'm very blur in the morning.
I was like lost,and everything I did was in a mess.
I was so angry with myself that I nearly wanna hide away for awhile.
So,I tried to relax and took deep breaths. Alhamdulilah,I felt abit better.

But then,my anger started to rise again.
I went to this ward to ask whether or not,the patient is going for scope.
Sadly,I was treated rudely by the nurse.
Eventhough my adrenaline was gushing up to my brain,I try to stay calm.
Suddenly,she started to be sarcastic with me.
Then from there,I give her a peace of my mind,and so she shut her mouth up.
What kind of attitude was that? I know I'm just an enrolled nurse but don't think I'm weak.
I felt throwing my shoe at her when she did that,but I just ignore her and walked away.

It gets worse through out the day.
While I was trying my best to push the beds back to the wards,there'll always be a group of students who doesn't know the meaning of "excuse me".
I mean,come on,you saw the effing bed coming towards you,move your butts away! Urgh!
Luckily,I was a student once,if not...sigh. Only God knows.

And at home,dad was being so irritating when I ask him to go to his room because I wanna change into my home clothes.
His reaction?? Lie down on my bed again and watch television.
Gah! I snatch my shirt and went to his room.
I brokedown in there because I just can't take the pressure.
Oh Allah,hear my cries.
Maybe this is the punishment I get for not being able to fulfill my promise to You.
But I hope,You get to heal my heart and make it better.
Because I just couldn't stand being like this anymore.
:'(

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I'll Catch A Grenade For You.

And I think I'm feeling all of the above emotions. Haha.
What am I doing up so early in the morning? Well,I'm starting work at 10am. Sucks man.
Really. I rather start work at 8am than to start late shift. Sigh.
I've been feeling rather exhausted lately. I need a break. A time for myself.
But I don't know when's that gonna happen.
PH! Please come soon! I need you! Lol.
Right now,I'm just listening to a new song from Bruno Mars which is called,"Grenade".
Awesome song. The lyrics are wonderful.
For those broken hearted people,listen to this song and I'm sure your feelings will totally be related to it.
Alright peeps,I gotta go ready now.
Can I not go to work,please? Hehe.

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A Cure For Boredom.

What is the most expensive thing in your room at the moment?
-Hmm,my camera I guess? Lol.

Do you think people under fourteen should have sex?
-Hell no! God forbids!

Have you ever feared that you would lose a body part?
-Yeah man. Everytime.

What is one subject you believe you'll never succeed in?
-MATHS. I always fail this subject. Haha.

Do you usually get jealous of your significant other's friends?
-Yup. And sometimes,when I look at their lives,I look down on myself. Sigh.

Where are you the most ticklish, if anywhere?
-Anywhere. And boyfriend knows where are my ticklish spots. Hehe.

Are you the kind of person who is sick the majority of the time?
-If I'm sick in the brain,does that count? Hahaha.

Would you rather receive a kiss on the cheek, or on the forehead?
-A kiss on the forehead. I love it. :)

Are you typically a fast texter?
-Well,most of my colleagues says I am. But I think I'm just average. Hehe.

What has been the highlight of your day so far?
-The moment I saw my favorite doctor. :D

Do you like the rain, or does it sadden you?
- I like the rain,because it calms my mind.

Are you a blogger? If so, which blogging website do you use most frequently?
-Yup and it's blogspot of course. :)

How many times a day do you eat a full meal?
-Countless baby.

Who was the last person you texted and what did it say?
-Boyfriend. (: Oh,he's just telling me that's he's off to work.

Are you more of a personal or outgoing person?
-Well,I'm a balanced of both though.

What are your plans for the rest of the day?
-Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepp!!

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