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Twilight.

::And so the lion fell in love with the lamb::

There is something,I see in you.
It might kill me,I wanted it to be true.

~END~

Labels: My thoughts you can't decode.

Asthma Attack.

I'm having palpitations right now.
My heart is beating too fast.
I can hardly breathe.

~END~

Labels: silent screams.

23 Days And Counting.

Well,I've finished reading this book. And,it was an awesome book.
I love it. ^ ^
The story is about this girl,named Daelyn,who intends to kill herself after 23 days. She was sick and tired of people bullying her,and destroying her life. But after awhile,she bump into two people who wants to be her friend.And so,the story goes on.
While I was reading this book,I started to recall back those times where I wanted to kill myself.
Yes people,I was suicidal last time.
I hated my life.
Like Daelyn,I was bullied since kindergarten. Until primary school,the problem continues.
I told mum about it,but she said to me,that someday,those people will be punished by God one day.
Well,I believed her but going to school everyday,with those kids sticking their tongue out on me,I was terrified.
Then during my secondary school years,I didn't had much friends. Like really.
If my bestie didn't come to school,I would sit all alone at the corner.
Sometimes,people would think I'm anti-social but basically,I'm not.
I've never really trusted anyone other than my bestie.
And in sec 3,I did the stupidest thing ever. Yeah,I cut myself. Stupid huh? I know.
For me,if I get to see the scars on my hand,I felt happy. Seriously.
I had so many family problems to handle and I couldn't absorb it no more.
But one day,when I was in Sec 5,I think,I told my teacher about it.
She was shocked to see the scars on my hand. And yeah,she brought me to see the school counselor.
Thanks to my dearest counselor,she has turn me into a better person now.
I've never think of those stupid stuffs again.
I guess,if I continue that old attitude of mine,I'm a loner forever. Haha.
Well,enough babble.
If you guys come across this book,buy it or borrow it at the library.
The moral of the story is,no matter how hard your life is,there are still other people who are living in a difficult situation than us. And don't underestimate other people's weakness.
Look at your own reflection and realize that we are not perfect either. :)

PS:Happy 32monthsary to us Sayang. Like I say,you'll never know how much I love you.

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Labels: silent screams.

This Is To Kill My Boredom.

Are you Single?
-Nope. Happily attached. :)

What do you hear right now?
-A song by Evanescence.

How are you feeling?
-Abit tired I guess.

You're trapped in a room with your ex for 3 days, what do you do?
-I'll give him a slow death. Haha!

Who was the last guy you talked on the phone?
-My good pal,Hazman.

Have you ever said you would never love again?
-Erm,yeah,I used to say that,and now,look where I am. Lol!

When is the last time you were Really angry?
-Hmm..yesterday night. I was pissed off with my dad. But I'm okay now.

What do you think the person you love is doing right now?
-Sleeping I guess. Hehe.

Do you have a curfew?
-Yes! I do have a curfew. Boo hoo.

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
-Yes! Alot of times though,I think about it,but nah.. I take back my words.

Have a best friend?
-Yup! And I love her! ^ ^

If you were upset , who' s the first girl you would go to?
-Of course it's Zee. She totally understands what I'm going through.

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
-Well,if the love for each other is true,then I guess it's worth it. :)

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
-Yes,my Sayang. Heee.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
-Aha. Ours will be reaching 2years and 8months soon. Weee~~!!

What are you listening to?
-Missing by Evanescence.

Are you missing someone?
-Yes,very badly. :(

Have you ever been called cute?
-Haha! Many times! Lol!

Describe how you feel right now in one word:
-Exhausted.

Do you think someone is thinking about you?
-I don't know. Hopefully,it's not a stalker. Haha.

How long did it take you to get over you last ex?
-Hmm..a year I think? Can't remember.

What are you doing right now?
-On Msn with my friend,Khalid. Hehe.

When is the last time that you cried? Why?
-Last 2 nights. I'm not sure what's the reason.

Has 2010 been good year for you so far?
-Yeah,it has been a good year. But I hope it will be better. :)

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Labels: silent screams.

Baby! Baby!

Me and Baby Danial Afiq. :D

Hello world. ^ ^
Well,yesterday I had fun at my aunt's house.
Actually,we didn't have any intention to go there,but mummy say she wants to look at my elder cuzzy's newborn baby.
So,me and my sis went off first to woodlands as mummy was still feeling exhausted from work.
We met cuzzy dhilah at the interchange and after that we hungout outside causeway point.
And like the usual,it's their smoking time. Hehe.
And another best part is,it was raining heavily. Great.
So,after their smoking session,we went off.
In the bus,cuzzy told us that,we have to run towards her blok as there is no bridge around that area.
As the door opens,we rushed out like mad kids! Haha!
It was hilarious! We just couldn't stop laughing.
Then we sat down under her blok for awhile,and yes,they smoked again.
Darn,I can die easily like that. Hehehe.
After their puffing,we went to her house.
Gosh! The baby look so darn cute!! I keep pinching those cheeks! Hehe.
Well,I can't babble too much right now.
Have to get ready to go out with mummy.
So,yeah peeps.i'll update soon.
Goodbye. :)

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Labels: silent screams.

Never Let Go.

Double the happiness today.
I get to meet Sayang and after that,my bestie,Zee.
It was awesome. ^ ^
I hug them tightly before I say goodbye.
And by the time,I let go of the hug,I miss them already.
:(

Ps:When you said,you wanted to leave early,to be honest,I nearly cried.But I just kept inside my heart because I didn't want to make you worry.

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Labels: silent screams.

Take A Flight.

What time did you wake up this morning?
-Hmm.. At 10am if I'm not wrong.

Who is the first person you spoke to after waking up?
-My brother.

Are you currently listening to any music? If so, what?
-I'm listening to Richard Marx's "Should've Known Better". Old school,I know. Haha.

Whose birthday is up next on your calender?
-Nur Fadhilah Binte Ismail. :)

Do you have plans for tomorrow?
-Yup,going jogging with my sister. Hehe.

What are you currently looking forward to?
-Work & graduation day. Weeee~~

Are you avoiding someone/something right now?
-Erm..yeah,I am.

Can you speak any other language, even just a little?
-I know abit of mandarin but I'm suck at it. -_-"

Do you cross your legs when you sit?
-Rarely. I sit like a dude. Haha.

Is anyone you know a police officer?
-My cousin. Heee.

Are you a fan of scented candles?
-Yes I am! I love the smells!

Do you wish you were currently somewhere else?
-Yes. Somewhere peaceful.

Ps;Al-fatihah to Achik Spin. You have been a great singer in the 90s and you'll never been forgotten. May your soul rest in heaven. Amin.

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Labels: Silencing the moment.

Daughters of Ipswich.

Watching the movie,"The Covenant" right now on AXN.
This movie brings alot of memories though about me and Zee. Haha.
We always like to do the re-actments of the movie and make fun of it!
And because of that movie,we had our nicknames:
-Zee(Wee-yotch)
-And me(Bee-yotch)
And together,we are "The Bwee-yotches".
Cool right?? Hahaha!! It sounds weird I know..hehe.
Gosh,I miss her already. Darn.
Gotta meet her soon before I start work.

Ps: MTV is gonna play Linkin Park's concert after this. They're still awesome no matter what. :)

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Labels: I will u my power.

Ecstatic.

I'm feeling overjoyed right now!
Wanna know why? Because I get the job already!
Alhamdulilah.. Thanks to the grace of God,my prayers are answered..
When the person called me and say that they're offering me a job,I started to jump and down!
Hahaha.. I know.. I sounded lunatic..
But hey,I waited for like one month for this,tell me who's not happy? Hehe..
Nevertheless,I wanna thank my family,close buddies and sayang for always there to support me and telling me not to give up..
I LOVE U GUYS! ^ ^
Well,gotta go now..
Have to wake up early to meet the in-charge..
Goodnight world.
:)

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Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Sigh-ing..

2 days already pass..
But still,no calls.. Nothing..
I don't know if I've been given a false hope or something..
Only God knows how I'm feeling right now..
:'(

Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Hectic.

Me,Faddy and Jeevitha,break a record.
226 comments at facebook in one night!
Can you guys imagine that?? Hahaha.
Actually it was only me and Fad but Jeevy join in the fun.
Chaos man!! But I like!! Hehehe.
We should do this more often..huhu!
I'm going nuts laughing at their comments!!
Hehehe.. Thanks for killing my boredom ladies. ;)

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Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Pathetic.

Bought the transcript today for 10bucks. Dumbass.
The hospital called and now I'm waiting for their confirmation on monday.
Hopefully I'll get. Sick & tired of waiting already.
*Crossing my fingers*

Ps:-Glad to meet you today Sayang. :)
-Thanks Azam for your company just now. I think if you were not there with me,I guess
I'll be sleeping at school while waiting for my turn. Lol. :P

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Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Hello dear world.
I'm back. Hehehe..
Well,for the last 2 days,I've been hanging out with my family..
On friday,I went out with my siblings,my sis's fiance and his cousins..
I was feeling kinda awkward at first because I've never talk to his cousins before..
But I try to fit in..haha..
We planned to watch movie actually but the planned failed..
Because all the tickets were full booked.. Darn.
So,abang(my sis's fiance),brought us to cash studios to karaoke! Haha..
That was the first time I stepped into that place,a new experience for me.. Lol.
I had fun karaoke-ing to be honest,haha.. So many jiwang songs I sang.. Shish!
After 3 hours of singing,all of us went to have our dinner at Sakura..
It was awesome.. Hehe..
Had a great time that day. :)
On saturday,I went to my aunt's house at marsiling..
Just to visit her..
But when I arrived there,my cousin told me that she has a present for me..
And guess what it is.. It's a doraemon keyboard!! I love it to the core man!! Hehehe..
It's so blue and nice..
I was so touched that she bought for me that thing..hee..
Me and my family stayed there until 10+pm,after that we went home..

I guess that's it for now..
Wanna go and have my rest..
Goodnight world. :)

Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

I Miss You More than Words Could Say.

It's very sad for me when he said that he has to work until sunday..
Gosh.. I'm missing him so much already.. :(
And yet,we still can't meet each other again..
I'm telling you guys,if killing is allowed,I'll search for his manager first..
Haha..kiddings..
But I'm just want the fairness in it..
Sayang has been working his butt off for like one week I think but still,there's no off day for him..
It's always like this..
It's so hard for us to meet each other..
For my side of problem,I'm the 'must stay at home' girl..
For his side of problem,it's about his work..
Well,I guess patience is the answer..
So,this friday,I'll just go with my shadow to the movies since he couldn't make it..
But I'm sure I'm gonna miss him so much on that particular day..
I hope we get to meet each other soon sayang..
I'm going nuts thinking of you.... :'(

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