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Need To Get Out Of Here.

And then again,tears are rolling down on my cheeks..
Why oh why?
I couldn't stop crying..
It's been like a few nights now..
Why do I feel this way as night falls?
I wonder...

To my friend,Fadhilah,that's a nice post you've written there on your blog..
I miss you girls too..
How I wish I was back in school now...

~END~

Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Addicted To You.

Woke up around 6am because mum called me..
She wants me to tag along to go Giant with her..
I was feeling kinda shagged actually,because I slept around 3am..
But in order for my mum not to scream at me,I rather follow..hehe..
So,bought some stuffs at there and went home..
I helped her out abit in the kitchen.. But not cooking. Lol!
Half and hour later,mum had her rest,and I'm left to boredom again.. -_-"
Luckily,my dear buddy,Haikal,was online..
Gosh! I was happy to see his name there..haha..
It's been a long time I didn't talk to him after school has ended..
We started to have this crappy jokes and talks,and we webcam too! Hehe..
But too bad,I don't know how to take a picture of us while we were webcam-ming(is there such word? Haha..)
If not,I'll totally put the image here..darn!
Soon after that,he has to offline,because he's working today..
Boo hoo.. Nevertheless,I'm glad to chat with him.. I miss that buddy of mine..

Right now,I'm religiously listening to Chase Coy's songs..
Gah! His songs are addictive!
Makes me wanna learn to play guitar,and strum to his songs..
Dear Chase Coy,you make me wanna la la.
xD

~END~

Labels: I wish that time would just slow down..

Loneliness Strikes Again.

For 4 nights straight,I've been crying my heart out..
Will it be any worse?
I wonder.......

~END~

Labels: My heart will find rest..

Fly sweetheart,fly.

I feel abit better today,I guess..
Well,I was feeling kinda down awhile ago but now I'm alright..
Thanks to all my friends who have cheered me up..
To Haner: Thanks for hearing me out just now. I really appreciate it.
To Twinny: Thanks for the advise. I love u to bits.

For my friends who has made my day today:
-My new familia:Irawr,Lilah & Yuyu.. You guys never fail to make me smile. :)
-To Faddy: Thanks for making me laugh so hard.. Those stupid idiotic jokes that you crack really makes my day..
-To Zee: Don't worry about me aite.. I'll be fine.. Your huggy message just now made my day alot.. Thanks.. The greatest bestie anyone should have.. :)

Last but not least,to my dearest buddy,Azam..
I know I've been missing once in awhile..
But that doesn't mean,I don't miss you my friend..
You have a great buddy to me..
I'm sorry if I messaged you like that suddenly.. My mind was in mess..
But no matter what,you are not forgotten okay? :)

Oh well world,I think that's all..
Kinda tired now..Need my rest..
Goodnight world.

Labels: Crash and Burn.

These tears kept coming..

Why oh why I just can't stop thinking of you?
It keeps bugging me every night when I'm left alone..
I don't know maybe I just need your presence again..
I feel like I want to scream out your name but I know that wouldn't happen..
What did I do wrong?
Why is this thing repeating like last time?
I thought you said you wouldn't leave me at all but now,they are just broken promises..
A friend I could have always count on during my darkest periods is now someone who I doesn't recognize at all..
If you think it's my fault too for going missing,then you should have just told me..
I cried when I think of you..
My friend said that I should maybe just wait for you to acknowledge one day,if I'm willing too..
I'm willing to do that but seeing you there,online,I felt this crush in my heart..
My mouse cursor keep clicking on your name,but I don't have the courage to start a conversation..
Do you how bad it hurts?
Yes,maybe it's my fault that I've been long gone too but you did that in the first place also..
Suddenly you went silent and when I say I miss you,you answered the same thing..
You told me you will come back soon..
So I waited... And waited.. And waited.. No answer..
You were there but you are not talking to me..
Why? I've lose enough friends,I don't want you to be the next one..
I thought I could ignore but still,I just can't..
I gave you a comment with a song in it.. And nothing..
I read your updates.. You said about something "exactly one year,nothing from you"..
It kinda relates to me.. Is it?
Maybe it's for someone else but the phrase really pierce through this heart..
I started reading it over and over again to reconfirm..
Gosh.. I just need to talk things out with you..
Please dear friend..
Hopefully you go through my blog and read this..
I really want things between us to become better...
Please....... :'(

~END~

Labels: Crash and Burn.

When Boredom Strikes..

Yeah..Was feeling bored..
Took some idiotic pictures of myself..haha..
Gee..It's raining heavily right now..
Somemore I'm listening to "Take me away by Chase Coy" right now..
Makes me wanna cry.. I feel sad suddenly.. :(
Dear friend,did you read the comment I gave you? The video?
I'm really trying my best to make things better for us..
But you didn't reply.. Sigh..
I just don't know what to do.. I really want us to be friends again..
Please.. Listen to the song.. And reply me back..
I also miss all of my school friends..
Gosh.. I wish I'm with them right now and having our laughs..

Ps:Sayang,I miss you too.. :'(

Labels: Crash and Burn.

Sleepy But Can't Sleep.

Well,it's already 142am and I still can't shut my eyes..
I want to take a rest now but it seems like I still wanna be with my lappy.. Pffttt..
Now already is like what,3 weeks of holiday? And still,I haven't enjoy it much..
I keep sleeping,watch television and eat..
Darn,I think I'm gaining weight already..
And those hospitals,I'm still waiting for your calls!!
Mum and friends told me that I should have taken sponsorship earlier so it's easier for me but I just shut my ears from it..
Because at that point of time,I was not really into nursing yet,that's why I didn't took that up..
But now,have to wait.. I feel so jobless.. -_-"

Right now,I'm just listening to a song from Chase Coy..
He's an amazing singer.. And his songs are awesome too.. :)
It brings your mind off from the stress world and to somewhere imaginary,calm and nice..
My favourites from him are,"Turn back time","Take me away","All those nights","Never had the courage" and "My heart will find rest"..
These songs really relates to what I've been feeling these few days..
I cried while listening to some of them..
Gosh.. How I wish I'm at the beach right now and listening to his songs..

That's about it I guess..
Have to try to shut my eyes right now..
Don't wanna wake up late later..
Goodnight world. :)

~END~

Labels: Crash and Burn.

I Miss Your Friendship.I Miss You.

Right now,I don't know why,I'm starting to think about you again..
It hurts alot..
I'm trying my best to move on from the old friendship that we had..
But it seems like I can't.. I really can't..
Because when I online,I started to search for you to see if you're there..
And when I saw your name on my link,I feel crushed inside..
I know I've been long gone but I didn't mean it..
Actually,at first I was kinda mad at you because you started to ignore me all of the sudden..
That's when I thought,it's the end of our friendship has ended..
I keep the angry feeling inside for like a few months..but now..that feeling has turned emotional..
I miss our late night chats.. Those stupid jokes that you like to crack.. And those words of comfort that you'll give me when I'm down..
Gosh..I wish I could talk to you right now..
Dear friend,don't think that I didn't acknowledge you now,doesn't mean I've forgotten about you..
I really wanna make a move but I'm afraid..
Hopefully you'll read this post..
So that you'll understand why I reacted this way..

~END~

Labels: the emptiness will haunt you.

Oh darling,I wish you were here.

Okay,I'm feeling so bored right now.
It's been a long time I haven't done any surveys.
So,let's start. :)

Who was the last person you kissed?
-My darling of course. :P

Would you cuddle with the last person you texted?
-Yup,not only that,I'm gonna spank her too! I'm gonna get you Lilah! Hehe.

What song are you currently listening to right now?
-Vanilla twilight by Owl City. Lovely song.

What do you do when you're upset?
-I'll just sit by myself and listen to my mp4..

How many people have you texted today?
-Hmm..I texted 4 people today.. My darling,Zee bestie,Yuyu darls and Misery Lilah. :)

Whats your favorite kind of hug?
-The very tight one that you don't feel like letting go.. Hehe..

Shoot out some lyrics to the song you hear:
-"The stars lean down to kiss you,and I lie awake,I miss you.. Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere".. Aww.. Hee..

How many miles are you away from the person you have feelings for?
-Hmm.. Not sure.. But very far though.. Boo hoo..

Besides real family, who do you consider a brother or sister?
-Azam.. He's like a second brother to me.. Hehe..

Who was your first text from today?
-Yuyu darls.. Telling me that she has come back to Singapore. :)

People who don't know you probably think you're a...?
-Anti-social person. Hahaha.

If you could leave your town would you?
-Yes,I will! I need it! Hehehe.

~END~

Labels: the emptiness will haunt you.

Besties forever!

Was feeling happy because at long last,I get to meet my dearest bestfriend,Zee! :)
Hehe.. It's been a long bloody time I didn't meet up with her..
Everytime she ask me out,I would have to reject due to some problems..
But luckily,she's a very understanding friend..
So,today,actually my mum was feeling very reluctant to let go out for awhile..
I convinced her that I really need to meet Zee..because I also have to give back her discman too..
And eventually,mum gave me the permission..
I was supposed to meet Zee at around 140pm,end up,I'm being late..haha.. Sorry Zee..
We walked around the mall and went to handphone shops..
She is now obssessed with the new LG phone.. Can't deny it,the handphone is damn cute..hehe..
After walking for like a half an hour,we decided to just hangout under her blok and drink our favourite bubble tea..hehehe..
Under her blok,we chatted alot stuffs.. Our secondary school times,problems and so much more..
After that,we took some pictures because I wanted too..haha..
Overall,I'm glad to spend time with her today..
Thanks for the fun time Zee(Amoi).. :D

~END~

Labels: the emptiness will haunt you.

Alesana is loved!

Heyloo peeps!
Well,yeah,I'm back again to brag about Alesana! Hahaha..
I wanna share with you guys their new video from the latest album,'the emptiness'..
The title is called,"The Thespian".
Thespian is basically a tragedian; an actor or actress. Nice one huh? Hehe..
The song is effingly nice and I love it!
Haha.. This band never fails to surprise me with their different styles of music..
Alright,enough bragging and watch the video! :)

Ps:Credits to Irawr for re-designing back my bloggie. Love you to the core babe. :)

Labels: the emptiness will haunt you.

Back online. :)

At long last,I'm finally and officially back online..hehe..
Where did I gone too? Well,only some of my peeps know..haha..
Anyway,I'm glad to be back(well,not really that glad though)..huhu..

Okay,let's do some updates..
Technically,I've finished my 2 years course in nursing!! Wee~~
But right now,it's tough for me to get a job..shish!
I already applied at the nearest hospital,but no answer.. Boo hoo..
Hopefully,I can get it..

Well,like the usual,I can't sleep right now..
Still wide awake.. Pfftt..
But luckily,my dear friend,Irawr,is messaging with me right now..
Say hello Ira! Hahaha..
Actually,I planned to sleep early because I'm going out later with my sis to do some job haunting,but it seems I can't shut these eyes.. Bleah!

Hmm..I just try to go and lie down then..
I'm having a headache too..haha..
Got to go..
Goodnight. :)

Labels: I Belong To The Skies

Goodbye lanyards! Hello certificate!

A gore picture huh? I wish I could be that nurse..hehe..

Nah..I'm just joking.. I'm a good nurse. :)

Well,today was our last day at school..like really our last last day! Haha..

But it's kinda sad though.. Our student years has ended..

Now,it's time to be an adult,and work..shish!

Some of us even wanting to continue the student years,but too bad,our journey has end here..

Being an erolle nurse,it's not an easy job..

We have to take many risk and responsibilities..

We're out alone in this cruel world..haha..

Okie2,I'm being dramatic..hehe..

Nevertheless,being a nurse is not easy as it seems..

We always have to be understanding and stuff..

Well,we just have to learn how to get through it right?

Our learning journey doesn't stop here..

Gosh...I'm gonna miss all my GFs...they are like my family already..

To my guyfriends,I'm gonna miss u dudes too man..hehe..

Keep in touch people! ILY all!!

Oke,that's all..

Anythig I'll update more aite! :)

PS:I feel like saying hello to you,but I'm afraid...

Labels: I Belong To The Skies

For The Worse Or For The Better?

Yesterday,I messaged one of my friend..
As it has been a long time since I last talk to him,I thought of wanting to hangout with this friend of mine..
But suddenly,one of his messages strike me..
I told him that I felt guilty because I didn't contact him for quite awhile..
But then,he told me this,"Oh,when you have the guilty feeling already,now then you wanna contact me"..
He put it in a joking way but that sentence really shaked me up for a moment..
I started to ask myself this,is this what I've become?
I mean,I know I went missing for long but that doesn't mean I've forgotten about them..
I just need time to be myself and stuffs..
There was this time also,where I online on MSN,one my friend nudge me..
He said that I've been missing for quite some time now..
Guess what I replied?
I told him that I purposely went MIA..
And the way he replied me back was kinda sarcastic too..

To be honst,I don't mean to happen this way..
I went missing also due to the situation around me..
My friend who I chatted in MSN,he went missing too..
But suddenly,he messaged me to solve his relationship problem with his ex..
Okie,that I don't mind..
But after he broke up with her,he went MIA again..and now he has a new gf..
If you guys think that,I'm doing this as a revenge,I am not..
I just feel so frustrated inside..
I miss all those great friends of mine..
I even dreamt about them..

But does it do me any good to be this way?
Or should I just say hello to them again?
Gosh..I wish I could be their great buddy again..
=(

Labels: I miss punching your jaw.