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Scream Like A Psycho..

Boredom occurs right now..
That's why I'm updating..haha..
Today,I was back at team 2 again..
And guess what?
There were alot of empty beds!!
How cool is that?! Hahaha..
I was totally shocked..
As there were not many jobs to do on my team,me and my friend,Nurbaya,decided
to become "floaters" for the day..hehe..
We decided to help our friends in the other teams..
But frankly,most of the patients can bathe on their own..
That's frustrating..haha..
About an hour passed,then there was this crew from mediacorp came,to do a show in our ward..
It's kind though actually..
Because it was hard to do our work when there were alot of their stuffs in our way..
After a few minutes,of making one scene,they went off..
Damn,that's lame.. Haha.. -_-"

Around 10am,then came the students of NYPs..
All of my friends were like,"Here comes the newbies.." Haha..
I rather not saying anything like that,because I'm also a student too..
So,I rather not to be too proud..
As I was walking towards the utility room,I bump into one of my friend! Jamal!
Hehe.. I was surprised to see him at my ward..
Then,while he was reading some casenotes,I came to disturb..
It's been like going to one year now,I didn't see him..
All of my friends thought,we are like ex-date.. What the hell??
Me and jamal got to know each other when I was having attachment at St Luke's..
That's why we chat like nobody's buisness..haha..
He told me that he was lost when he first came in..
He then said to me,it's been a long time we didn't keep up with each other's lives..
He said that I was the one who has been MIA for such a long time..haha..
Sorry buddy.. Since we're in the same ward,I'll try my best to help u aite..
I wouldn't want to let my buddy down..hehe..

So,yeah,that's about it..
Tomorrow it's my off day!! I'm so damn happy!! Hehe..
Gonna sleep through the day.. Haha..
xD

PS:Maybe I should MIA more often.. Maybe I should start it from today..
&& I'm still wondering why.......

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Labels: In Fate's Hands..

8th Week Update:Everything Happens So Fast..

Hello hello!! I'm back!!
Haha.. I know.. I've been gone without a trace....again.. Hee..
Oh well,been busy and I have no time for my lappy..
Okie,let's cut the crap and I'll start with my updates aite!!

So,this week,my colleagues and I,have to change teams in order to make it fair between us..
I was being transfered from team 2 to team 3..
I thought I was gonna get hell because usually team 3 is always busy like team 1..
But my predictions were wrong!!
While I was in this team,it was very slack.. And I mean,very very slack..
I keep spinning around while sitting on my chair and chat with my friends..
It sounds like I'm a lazy nurse already..haha..
But I had fun with my staffs though..
They crack stupid jokes with us..
And...I got a new nickname from one of my staff..
She called me "Nicky".. Wanna know why??
Because she said with my new hair do,I look like the actor,Adam Sandler,in the movie "Little Nicky"..
That's how the name came about..
So,everywhere I go,she'll call me,"Nicky!!",hehehe..

That was about it,the update about the ward..
Oh! Last two days,I was so freaking happy!!
It's because... it was our TWO YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!
At long last,we have reached 24 months..
I didn't believe that would happened..
But..too bad I didn't get to celebrate it with him..
First,it falls during the fasting month.. Secondly,the both of us were working on that day,so we can't meet each other..
*Sob sob*
Hopefully,I can meet him soon to give him a one great big hug!! Hehe..

Hmm.. So.. This upcoming week,I'll be back in team 2 again..
I'll pray hard that it will be as slack as team 3..haha..
But I also wanna finish up my I/V skills too.. If not,die lah!!
Oh ya,the ward is gonna get crowded too..
Year one NYP students are coming and it's gonna be hectic..huhu..

Well,I guess that's it..
I'll update more if I have the time.. =)

PS:I feel like I'm missing a friend.. I wonder who..

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Labels: In Fate's Hands..

LOL!

What was the highlight of your week?
-Getting to know that one of my patient is mum's colleague..hehs..

When was the last time you had your heart broken?
-That was a long time ago dude..

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
-Check my handphone for any messages..hehe..

Last time you were sick?
-One week ago.. It was an eye infection..

What is your idea of true love?
-Trust.Honesty.&&Obviously LOVE.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
-Rockstarku.. =)

Are you a cuddler?
-Yup yup..

Does anyone know your Myspace password?
-Nah.. I'm gonna delete it soon anyway..

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
-I felt like that within the last few days..

If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
-Oh my.. There goes all the alcoholics.. Going through a slow death..haha..

What's the last piercing you got?
-Just at the ears.. I wanna pierce at my lips!

What are your plans for tonight?
-Just waiting for him to message me..

Last movie you saw in theaters?
-Ice Age 3:The Dawn Of The Dinosaurs.. Awesome movie yeah..

Where's your favorite place to be?
-Somewhere peaceful..

Do you talk in your sleep?
-Who doesn't??

If you wrote a autobiography what would it be called?
-'The Eclipse Of My Life'.. How's that??

What annoys you most?
-People who just can't stop think highly about themselves..

Do you think you are attractive?
-Definitely not!!

What foods are your weakness?
-Eggs and french fries.. Bleah!

Your best friend died because of you, what would you do?
-I'll keep blaming myself for the rest of my life..

Are you and your ex friends?
-Nah..we lost contact..

What is your nickname?
-Billy Dudette!! xD

Are you a stubborn person?
-I can be at times..

Do you howl on full moons?
-Nope.. Just being mesmerized by it..

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Labels: I Belong To The Skies

7th Week Update:Im A Blur Blur Kid..

Hey ya'll... Yeah,I know.. MIA again..haha..
Oh well.. Busy with work always.. Haiz..
This week,I'm in a new ward..and it's a surgical ward..
Damn,it's hectic!!
=X

Last monday,I didn't get to work because I was on mc..
Eye infection again..(itchy hajar)..
I had to stay at home and mostly slept my whole day through..haha..
So,I came back the next day..
And I was freaking blur.. Blur to the max!!
Then there's this CI(Clinical Instructor),give me a one to one orientation since I didn't came on the first day..
In the end,I get the whole picture..haha..
But one thing,the way the people did the work there is totally different..
The way they chart,the timings,the protocall..
I was totally lost..
I had to take up everything in a speed..
Like SERIOUSLY fast..

I guess I can't work under pressure..
I can't focus and I keep making the minor mistakes..
I was really angry with myself for being such a dumbass..
At first I was mad with my EN,but then,when I think back,I also had to get ready for the future..
I also have to work alone when I've become the official nurse one day..
But I don't think I wanna be a nurse,haha..
Confusing huh?? -_-"

These few days,I had alot of breakdowns..
I didn't even know why..
Last few days,when I came to the tea room,suddenly I just brokedowns in my friend's arms..
It was damn embarrasing..
Then the whole day,I was in a bad mood,that I didn't even talk to my girlfriends that much..
Sigh..
Maybe because of work pressure..
I really miss cardiac ward..
Miss learning about the stuffs of the heart..
Oh well,hopefully I can go through this with a strong heart..
Somemore,it's already fasting month,and maybe every tough job I'm going through will be a blessing in disguise..

I think that's the most of it,I wanna share..
It's boring I know..hehe..
I got to go now..
Need to do some research for my next training.. Darn!

PS:I miss my friends who are now in the other ward.. Miss all the fun we've been through..
Hope u guys are doing okie ya.. Hajar loves ya all!! =)

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Labels: I Belong To The Skies

Moments That Were Gone..

I was checking up my facebook in the afternoon..
To me,sometimes,it's no use checking it..
Because why? It's just merely the same thing everyday..
So,anyway,I went to check my friends profiles.. Just to see how they were doing..
Most of them really changed alot,especially my secondary school friends..
I couldn't barely recongize them at all..
When I look upon their names,then I remembered some of them..
How pretty and charming my friends grew through these years..
I smiled when I think back those times.. It was funny..
But to be honest,I don't really miss my secondary school life..
Through out those years,I only have one friend who really sticks with me until now which is Zee..
I know this sounds so lesbian but yeah,I love her.. Like a sister..
Secondary school moments means nothing to me without her..
She's the one who has been there for me especially during my bad times..
It's been a long time we didn't meet up with each other because of my busy schedule..
Hopefully we'll hangout soon..

I started to have this topic open because these few days,I felt lonely at work..
It's a sudden thing and I don't know why..
Is it an emo thing? I don't think so..
I mean I have great friends at ite now.. I don't deny that..
But sometimes,the feeling just came upon me..
On and on,when my friends talk about their lives,I felt small about myself..
It's like I'm missing much more in this world..
The way they say it,like it makes me think back,"Am I missing something here?"..
I wonder..
That's why,when like two of my friends,chat with each other about their great moments,I rather keep myself silent and listen to their stories..
Is it a jealousy?
I'm not sure.. I need some answers beneath these sadness..
I think I need more self-confidence within myself..
Dear God,help me get through this..
I know with Your guidance,I can bring myself back up again..

PS:Left eye is having infection again.. So,I'm having my medical leave tomorrow.. Dang! Have to come back on saturday to do make up.. Somemore it's the first day of the fasting month.. Whatever.. To hotcore,too bad I can't meet u tomorrow.. I need your hug badly now....... =(

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Labels: I Belong To The Skies

6th Week Update:I Need To Regain My Sanity..

Today,is the last day at the cardiac ward.. Boo hoo..

Time flies by fast without us noticing it..

I miss them already.. Miss all those stupid jokes we make with staffs there..

Maybe one day I'll work there because I think I'm used to the ward situation already..

Around 2pm,we had a small party,just having small gathering between us and our lecturer..

Me and some of my friends went in last because we were busy doing some stuffs..

When we came,everybody in the room said "Surprise!".. I was shocked,haha..

My friend,Hazieqah,brought a cake for my friend's upcoming birthday and for the other belated birthdays,including me..

It was very nice of them..and I nearly cried..

A flashback of what I did on my birtday,was suffocating my thoughts..

I tried to shake it off from me..

Then after all that eating and laughing,we decided to pass the foods to the staffs..

Afterwards,we all say goodbye to the staffs and went home..

So next week,I'll be going to another ward.. I think it's a medical ward..

We will be separated in the diferent wards because there are too many of us..

That's sad.. Gonna miss working with some of my colleagues.. And I'm sure the atmosphere will be different..

Oh well.sometimes we have to face it.. I mean we can't always be working with the same people everyday right?

That's the most of it..

I need my rest now..

***Been feeling down these few days.. Don't know why.. My mind was in a mess.. I tend to keep myself away from some of my friends.. I need to breathe.. And to the lady,shut up with your remarks.. I was already in the bus and yet u still talk about my hair.. U really turn my day sour..***

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Labels: I Belong To The Skies

My Heart Goes Out To Her..

Today,went to grandma's house because my uncle had a ceremony going on for his first baby.. It was half exciting and half draggy for me..haha.. Im not feeling well today.. Darn!! So yeah,hangout with my cuzzy and my little nephew.. He's so damn cute...heee... After awhile,I went down to the void deck to meet my uncles and aunts..

Then one of my cuzzy,asked me to join him to eat with him.. We started to talk crap,as the both of us were feeling super duper sleepy..haha.. As the hours passed by,I decided to go up again,because I've been sneezing non-stop.. When I wanted to go to the toilet,I bump into one of my auntie.. Suddenly there were tears in my eyes.. She look so sick..

Mum told me that the doctor has diagnosed that she has having cancer at an advance stage.. I was shocked when I heard about it.. I didn't get to see her when she was admitted to the hospital.. Just only today that I got to meet her.. How dreadful she looked.. After I kissed her hand,I went into the room to do my prayer.. But as I went in,these tears started to roll down from my eyes.. She looked so unhappy and weak.. And because of chemotherapy,most of her hair are falling off.. I felt sorry her..

Dear Mak Muk.. It must be hard for u to go all through this.. Nobody can understand how u feel and how is it like to be that way.. But just stay strong.. All of us love u.. Our prayers are with u... Don't give up hope alright..

When I saw her that way,I really do appreaciate my life more.. We can never know when we are going to leave this world.. Only God predicts every single thing that's going to happen in our lives.....

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Labels: I Belong To The Skies

5th Week Update:Laughter Is The Best Medicine..

So,this is it..the end of 5th week at the ward..
Just one more week to go and we'll go to another ward..
It's kinda sad when I think about it though..
I even thought of working in this ward when I graduated..
But let's just see how it goes..

This week,I had been laughing non-stop with our craziness..
Irritatingly cute patients,my friend fall off ffrom the chair,my other friend crack some stupid jokes while we were doing changing..it was hilarious..
I even get to do most of the skills already! Yesszaa!
At last,I got to do my IV therapy skill..been chasing that skill for a few weeks now and yes! I got it! Hahaha..
I never thought of doing it at first because I was kinda nervous about it..
But then my lecturer saw me holding the schedule chart and I told her about it..
After that,she asked me to do it with her..
I was terrified at first but she really guide me along about the steps..
I seriously couldn't really remember about what I should do next..
When she keeps prompting,thankfully I can do it..phew!
At long last,I've done some initials..only left the competency.. Bleah!
Nevermind,if I keep up the pace,confirm I can make it right? Hehe..
Been slacking for way too long..need to buck up already..
Wake up hajar!! xD

Okie dokie,that's the most of it..
Gotta go now!!

PS:To my buddy Azam,cheer up soon aite.. Don't let the smile of yours fade away.. Everything happens for a reason... Have a strong heart k.. =)

Labels: I Belong To The Skies

4th Week Update:Our Celebration