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		Random Awesome. Hajar is the name. A MuslimI am,and proud of it. I choose not to deny my humanity but embrace it. I'm weird but approachable. I don't believe in karma but I believe in Qada & Qadar. ♥A nurse,who will always try to satisfy the hearts of her patients.

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