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Promises Turns Into Lies..

Now,I have seen the truth with my own eyes..
One year has passed,and those words to me now,are just like a bunch of lies..
I cried,I plead,and I fight over it but in the end,those moments were useless...
Everything felt different and it's falling apart...
It's just seem so awkward now..
I recalled back those words and memories,it hurts..
I should have known this would happen..

Friendship...such a big word to describe..
Truth,honesty and love,stated in it..
But I don't think it would happen again..
Lies over and over again..
We are just hurting ourselves..
Maybe going our separate ways it's good??
That's what I thought..
I get to see the true colours of our friendship..
I can't find anymore solutions..
I'll just let it be then..
Maybe there's a reason behind it..
Whatever happens,happen..

A song dedicating to our friendship...and I think this how I feel right now..or maybe forever??

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

Endless Summer Nights..

School has been so busy these days,
And I'm getting tired of it..
The long hours..
The stupid theories..
Gosh....I'm getting tired of it..

Today,thank God,that it rains..
It's been a long time the country didn't had any water to drink..
As I look at those lightnings,flashing their way at the rooftops,
I was stunned..
Something triggers my mind..
I asked myself,
"What would happen,if the lightning suddenly strikes our way,and burn the school down?"
I wonder..
I know,it sounded like a curse..
But I'm trying to wake myself up to the reality of life..
My friends said that "Life's Unfair"..
Well,actually it's not..
Life has given us everything,and we are the one who made it unfair..
We took disadvantage of it..

But sometimes,we didn't realize our own mistakes..
Like me,I took disadvantage of what has given to me last time..
Now,I'm trying my best to appreciate everything..
Like the song title from the band "Before Their Eyes"..
Which is called "Life Was All A Dream"..
And it's true..
Dreams can shatter into pieces if we don't know how to work on it..
So,yeah,I've said enough..
An emo entry?? Nah...just wanna share what I feel...hehe...

PS:I almost forgot...Happy 20mths Anniversary darling...Eventhough we only see each other once in awhile,our love still stay strong.....Love u always....
=)

~END~

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

My Heart.My Weakness.

Some people say that I'm too nice..
Is that true??
But that's just me...Maybe I followed my mum's genes...

"Kindness",is a big word..
That's what I tried to give to everybody that I'm close with..
But sometimes I think it's been taken advantage of..
I'm sick and tired of it..
I tried not to be too kind,but still,my weakness overtakes me..

I don't know what I'm suppose to do..
Should I change myself or just let me be me??
I wonder..
It hurts alot when some people I'm just being ignorant or an irritating "auntie"..
But that's how I show my concern..
I know I do yak alot when I give advices but are those words meant nothing??
At times,I feel like changing myself into a ruthless girl..
When I think back,it's just no use..
I'll hurt myself even more..

I do cried thinking about this when I was alone..
I need guidance..
I need faith..
The world is falling apart,so am I..

I felt:USELESS..........

~END~

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

Life Was All A Dream.

1. What are you listening to?
-Angels by Within Temptation...

2. Do you have any good music suggestions?
-Erm...nope,I don't...haha...

3. Hugs or drugs?
-Of course hugs!!

4. Do you watch the disney channel?
-I don't have cable tv anyway,so,yeah,didn't watch it..

5. Do you like sushi?
-Yup,I do..hee...

6. Are looks important?
-Well,I think so.. Looks are always the one people are yearning for right??

8. Are you rebellious?
-I wish I am..haha..

9. Did you ever have an imaginary friend?
-Yes!! and I still do have now..hehehe..

10. Do you like to write?
-Hmm...I like to write poems only..huhu...

12. What do you find attractive in the opposite sex?
-Dimples!!!

14. Do you like taking pictures of yourself?
-When I'm feeling bored..but usually I didn't show my face when I took a photo of myself..hehe..

15. Do you eat fast-food?
-Yes I do sometimes...

19. Can you cook? What's your most delicious dish you cook?
-I can't cook...still undergoing training...hehe..

20. Opposites attract. Do you believe that?
-Of course they do..

21. Do you take a long time getting beautiful (aka ready)?
-20 mins...is it long?? Hee..

23. Do you dye your hair often?
-Nope...for now,it has been black for years..

24. Do you got a BFF?
-Yup,I do..and the name starts with an N.. =)

25. In three words how would you describe yourself?
-Crazy.Joker.Dreamer.

27. Do you fall asleep easily?
-Yup,I do..I'm a sleepy person..haha..

28. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
-Can't remember..

29. Rain or snow?
-Abit of both?? Hehe..

30. What kind of career do you want?
-A great one...

~END~

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

Stuck Up.Suck Up.

I was fine in the morning.

Then when afternoon came,I kept mum.

What happen to me?? I'm not sure.

At 8pm,I cried.

Crazy me.

~END~

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

Pissed Off.

Today school was starting off good,
But at the end of the day,it sucks.....

Had fun during P.E with my friends in the morning..
Then after that I had a great chat with my clique..
Everything was going well before break time...
Eventually,after that,my frustrations started to burn up in me..

First and foremost,something happen..
My class was having a 5mins break because everybody was feeling kinda sleepy..
As I was just doodling cartoons on my paper,
My friend shouted my name from far..
She asked me whether or not I took out my design which I had pasted on my locker..
So I answered "no"..
Then anger strikes me when she say my design was gone,it was being teared away..
I was totally shocked..
Who the hell would want to do that??
When lesson ends,I looked at it,and it's true,it was being teared off..
I was devastated..
A design that took me hours to do it and now it's gone just like that...
Haiz.....

Something pissed me off after that incident,
But I think I just wanna keep quiet about it,
If not I'll get hell...

Well,
I don't wanna brag too much about it..
If u hate me or u hate my design,u shouldn't have do that...
I HATE U MR OR MISS SOMEBODY.

~END~

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

A New Obsession?? I Guess So...

Well,
It's been quite a few weeks now,I didn't do any music updates..
So,here we go...

I was checking out purevolume.com,
And then I saw this band,I don't know if they are a new band or something,
But they are awesome...
They are called,Before Their Eyes...
Their music is great and I think I'm going nuts for them now..haha...

In most of their songs,I like one of it..
Which is "So In Love"...
U guys might think like,"Yeah,yeah,I'm in love right now,that's why I like this song",
Oh well,if u people think that way,then you're wrong!! Hah!!
The song is quite nice to groove with and the lyrics are fun..

So,if u have a crush on someone and u want to dedicate a song,
I recommend this song..hehe...
I would surely recommend it to my hotcore..hahaha....
Okay,enough yakking,hit the play button and listen it for yourself...

(To the people,who knows about this song already and thinks I'm like lagging behind,just keep the comments to yourself...haha..)

Labels: I Bleed Rainbow.You Bleed Black

Those Words Are Infectious..

**Shut The Door & Let Me Scream**

Do songs make you cry?:
-Yeah..they make me cry sometimes...

What does it take to make you cry your heart out :
-Hmm..when I was feeling really down..

How many times have you done that :
-Uncountable..

Where do you cry?:
-Either in the bedroom or in the toilet..

Do you hate crying :
-Not so...Crying makes me feel better..

Do you like it when others cry :
-Nope I don't..

Do you think tears make eyes look pretty :
-Do they??

What do you do when you're angry :
-Hmm..usually just be with myself for awhile...

What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad :
-Ah,u don't want to know about it..

Do you freak out when others are angry :
-Yeah,I do..

What makes you happy :
-My music makes me happy..

What do you do when you're happy :
-Just be crazy and laugh my ass out!!

Ever been so happy you cried :
-Haha....sometimes yeah...

Who really makes you happy :
-My buttercup?? Hahaha....

Do you like doing things for people when you're happy :
-It depends...

What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER :
-I didn't get to tell my loved ones how much I love them during my last breath...

~END~

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Baby,You're So Good To Me..

I'm so glad that we get to spend time with each other yesterday,
The way u hugged me and hold me in your arms,
I just don't feel like letting u go...
I'm starting to miss u already...............

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Have you ever dipped tobacco before?
-Ew,no..that's disgusting...

Have you ever given up on something you loved?
-Yup..and that's art...boo...

Do you like the band paramore?
-Yup,I do...

Do you consume alcoholic beverages?
-Nope and never...

What kinds of music do you enjoy?
-Hmm...mostly got something to do with screams,but I wouldn't mind slow sentimental ones..

How many pets do you have?
-I have none..

What are your plans for new years?
-To work & work & work..haha...

What is your religion?
-Islam it is..

Are you talking to anyone right now?
-Nah..

Are you going to put this on myspace?
-I have a myspace but I think I'm gonna delete it soon..

Who last commented you on myspace?
-Who's that girl,I forget her name..haha..

Do you know anyone named jessica?
-No,I don't..

Do you have/want kids?
-When I'm married one day,one or two kids is a no problem for me..

What highschool do you go to?
-Erm...mine is not called highschool..it's a college..hahs..

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
-Yup,I have a boyfriend..and damn,I heart him alot.. *Grins*

Have you ever been shot with anything?
-Never...thank God for that...

Who was the last person who hit you?
-Hmm..my bestie when she had nothing else to do...hoho..

Are you listening to music right now?
-Yup...One More Night by 98 Degress..it's such an old song but I like!

Do you have a cellphone?
-Yup,I do..

Do you have unlimited texting?
-Hmm...I don't think so..

What kind of phone do you have?
-Sony Ericsson W910i..and the phone sucks..

What color is it?
-Black it is..

What was the last thing you drank?
-Tea with milk.. *Slurp!*

What did you eat last?
-Horfun noodle...nice....

Got plans tonight?
-Slacking at home and watch tv...

When did you last feel overwhelmed?
-Yesterday...his words totally overwhelmed me..hee...

When were you last sad?
-Hmm..can't remember...

Are you typically a jealous person?
-Well,I'm a human being..it's natural to feel jealous sometimes..

Are you wearing anything on your feet?
-Barefooted beybeh!

How is your hair?
-In a mess..

Have you lasted in a relationship more than a year?
-Yup yup....and I'm happy about it..

Are you currently on any other websites?
-Yeah..purevolume..

How old will you be in 20 years?
-39 it is...damn...can't imagine myself in that age...scary...hehe..

~END~

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BFF People!!

Had lots of fun today...
The laughter,craziness & the smackings...haha...
And oh,dont forget the french slang it was hilarious! Hehe...
And thanks for the middle finger too..gorilla..hoho...
Hope we can hangout again..
I really enjoyed myself...
I hope u did too...

~END~

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