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Maybe You Haven't Grown Mature Enough..I Don't Know..
Years has pass...and I keep hearing the same stories...and I'm tired of it..I mean,when is it going to end?? It's always about u and your love life...it's dumb... Your exs keep bugging me,do u know that's irritating?? Gosh.... When will u think maturely?? I know,I'm still young...I would not know what the hell I'm talking about.. But seriously,it's at my wits end... U are tough when it comes to be rebellious with the rules and laws,but when it comes to love, u are just as weak... I thought u can try to at least be firm to them but you're not doing it... Maybe mum was right...u found a replacement too fast.. Come on,eventhough he told u to move on,that doesn't mean u have to find a new bf.... When I told u it's too early for u to be in a relationship,u showed me attitude.. I was speechless... As your sister,I wanted the best for u but this is what u did.... U are always like that... When you're in love,u tend to forget what is your role... I don't mean to brag,I know make mistakes too.. But I try my best not to hurt mum's feelings... She's not well and exhausted,yet u still follow your stubborness...I just hate that... Please... Open up your eyes,and see the reality... You're still new with that guy but u still speak unholy alliances... I just don;t know what to say anymore... Mum told me to advise u,it doesn't work... So might as well,I just shut my mouth and see how it goes... I don't hate u,I just dislike your attitude............ Labels: I Bleed Rainbow., Screams.You Bleed Black All Of My Memories Keep You Near....
Happy 1year 7months anniversary sweetheart.....We've went through alot all this while... The arguements,misunderstandings and more... But overall,we manage to make it together... We had our hopes & fears but only time can give us the answer... I'll surrender the fate of our relationship to the hands of God... Hopefully,we can be there for each other always... In God's will........... Here's a song,I dedicated it to u my dear... (Memories by Within Temptation) With much love.... Labels: Screams.ILY Hotcore. Oh Gosh! How Ugly I Look!
These few days has not been good for me...I had an infection on my left eye.... Yeah,I know..It sucks....Urgh! I thought it was normal at first,so,I kinda ignore it... But after awhile,the pain started to come... And it was a piercing pain.... My cousin said to me that she could see that my eye is getting swollen by the hours.. Then I was like,"Wha?? You're kidding me!".. I panicked.. When I went to my aunt's house,the pain gets worsen... I was seriously walking the house with a tissue covering my left eye... (Damn,I look like a pirate) So,yesterday,I went to the A&E with mum... It was hurting so bad... Tears kept rolling down on my cheeks,because it was unbearable.. Even the doctor was shocked when he looked at me... He refered me to the eye specialist... (This part sucks,because I waited for her for hours) After seeing her,she said it's too swollen and she cannot make a cut out of it.. I was devestated... She prescribed some anti-biotics and painkillers to reduce the swelling.. I went home after that.. When I woke up today,the pain comes again.. My sis said that the swollen part is getting bigger... I tried to force myself to look at the mirror and darn,I look hideous! I told mum that I coudn't bear the pain no more.. She then told me to go back to the hospital with my sis.. I came back and this doctor,(it's another doctor),was kind of freaked out.. He said that he must do a small surgery immediately to let out the dirty stuffs... Sigh....the surgery was damn painful.... I cried alot and that was embarrasing..... Now,it's kinda better... But it gets even watery,I cant even watch the tv clearly... Oh well,hope it gets better soon.... ~END~ Labels: Screams.My Eye.It Hurts. Im'ma Kill You Vodafone!!
My wireless internet thingy is acting sucks this few days...Gah!! Hate it.... So totally gonna change it... Internet reacted damn slow and my anti-virus cant even be updated...bleh........ Really made my frustrations go haywire... Sigh..... Whatever..... PS:My GPA sucks to the core....really need to buck up...shish!! X[ Labels: blank. 3 Guys,1 Girl...A Hectic Day....
Yesterday,I had fun going with 3 of my ex-colleuges(is that the right spelling?)haha....I went out with my great guy friends..and they are Azam,Din & Nizam.. I was told by Azam at first that they planned to go E-Hub with the others.. So,yea,I agreed... But last saturday,he message me again,saying that they had switched plans.. They decided to go karaoke... And the shocking part was,there will be no girls around except me... I was like "Wha??" It was the first time for me to hangout just with the guys... And actually I was looking foward to it....hee... Sunday came... I met Azam first at the interchange cause I didn't know where is that place... In the bus,I had a great chat with him... Damn,he can be quite annoying...haha... (No offence Zam!!) Hehe..... We arrived at Katong,and at there we bump into Din... How I miss him...hee... I miss his words like,"Hello?","Duh!"very stylish,very bitchy...keke... So,the guys lead the way... I was brought to this karaoke area... It looks kinda old skool actually.... We went inside,and the guys start the ball rolling... Azam and Din sang the song "My Immortal" by Evanescence..and it was kinda funny..haha.. Then came along Nizam.... Afterwards,Azam threaten me to sing(luckily I didnt smack u dude,hahaha).. And yeah,I grab the microphone and sang... (Confirm u guys will be blaming for the rain...huhu) But overall,I really had fun during the afternoon... After 6pm,Nizam has got to go home...boo....hehe... Left only me,Azam and Din..then we plan to have our dinner... We rode the bus to Afghanistan(it's an eating place people!!not the country!!)hee... Then at 9+pm,we decided to go home.. The most touching part was,they said they wanna ride bus 18.. But as the busses kept coming,they didnt ride any of it.. To my shocked,they were waiting for my bus.. If my bus haven't come yet,I think they would still accompany me...so nice of them.. =) Thanks guys.... Hope we hangout again... I really enjoyed myself being the rose among the thorns...hahaha... That was about it... I gotta continue study now... Update soon!! ~END~ PS:I did well for my phase test today...weee~~~ Labels: I'll cherish every moment of it... Here They Go Again...Woo Hoo!! Thanks for the laughter today.. It's been a long time we didn't hangout with each other.. "Mer'ci!"Hahahaha...I don't know how to spell that anyway..hehe... Back to blogging... Sorry ya'll...been busy with studies.... Let me summarise it: School had started,glad to meet my classmates again ,tests are coming soon & that sucks. Let me do a music review tonight aite?? Haha.. So,let's begin... Well,they are back again with a new songhit!! Who else either then ALESANA!!! Hehe...I know,I know.... I'm going nuts for them.... Their songs sometimes motivates me in some situations... I really hope I get to meet them one day and give them a one great big hug!! Hahaha.... So,the new song came up on the 10th march if I'm not wrong.. U guys must have heard the song by Justin Timberlake,"What Goes Around Comes Around",right?? This hardcore guys re-make the song into their style... The intro of the guitar is so damn bloody nice and I looovvveeee it!! Heee.... When I heard it for the first time,I'm already addicted to it...huhuhu... Okie then,enough babbling... Just listen to the song and u guys can judge it for urself.. Enjoy! Labels: Weeeee....... I Felt The Difference?? I Wonder.... It seems that I just don't know u anymore... I felt there is a difference in u...and it's scaring me... I thought I've found a person who I can go to anytime but now..I don't think so... Everytime I said hello,u were always there to make my day.. But,when I do it this time round,it took so long for u to reply.. Maybe I'm too boring as friend...I'm not sure... It feels so awkward to reach for u now... I don't know if I should let it be this way,or confront about this to u.. Maybe,I'll just keep quiet about it and see how it goes... Or maybe,I'm just too sensitive... ~END~ Labels: Keep losing friends..hate it...always happens.... How Pathetic Can You Be?? U have already turn much older this year,and yet,u are stubborn as ever.. Mum and dad keep pestering,and u said u hate it.. But why must u repeat the same mistakes again?? Haven't u learn enough?? It irritates me when u are back to your old ways.. And somemore now,u have a new guy by your side,and that's bugging.. I gave u advices,but still,u ignore them.. I just don't know what to say to u anymore.. My heart aches everytime u reacted this way.. Am I angry?? No... Just plain irritated that's all.. I tried to keep myself from talking to u,but it doesn't work.. Because why?? We are quite close together and I'm scared to hurt u.. Please... Change your ways.. Be a lady and not a small kid.. I know u are wanting for freedom but don't hurt mum this way.. I'm begging u... Do mend your ways and your attitude... I just couldn't take it no more... ~END~ Labels: God....give her some guidance.... It's Time To Look Upon The Future... Attachment is over!!! Kinda sad and happy over it....haha... Sad because I really gonna miss my patients... Happy because.......let me just keep it to myself...hehe... So,back to school next week.... Gah! Tabner again...nad more biology...shish!! I still don't get the whole package about this bio thingy man... I don't know if I can make it through it alive... Somemore,I heard that we are going to have any subject to study... Bah!! Come on..... Not another one....I can go nuts sey.... There's even tons of other projects to do!! Shiet!! Hopefully I won't drop dead at school... (Sometimes I wish I could do that) Tomorrow,I'll be going to my part-time workplace to quit my job... Well,I just have to... Too many things to handle... And my mum is also afraid that I can't cope with everything.... Damn it....I'm going to miss all of them there... My friend,Azam,plan to make a farewell party.... Sweet isn't it?? Hee.... I'll be meeting them for awhile also tomorrow.... Gonna joke and laugh till we go crazy....haha... Hmm... I think that's all I want to say for tonight... Getting sleepy already.... Update soon!! ~END~ Labels: Reality is a bore....  The Bond That We Had Created......... I Took A Snapshot While He was Opening It..Hehe... His Birthday Cake....Sweet.....Forget Our Problems,Let's Dance In the Rain My Dear... Boo ya!! Yeah...I know...it's been a long time since I last updated it... So...let's go!! Let's share about yesterday first.... Yesterday,on the 3rd march was My Hero's 22nd Birthday!!!! Hee.... After knocking off from work,I quickly changed into my home clothes to meet him at the interchange... (By the way,thanks to Baya & Haziee for waiting for me,haha...) Well,back to the story... When we met each other already,off we went to the MRT station to spend our time at the vivocity... While we were in the train,I fell asleep on his shoulder...damn embarrasing...haha... *Skip....Skip....Skip....* Actually he planned to watch a movie with me,but when I looked at the timings,I was like..duh.....too long to wait I told him...hehe.... So I tell him that we can just hangout for awhile at the rooftop....and he agreed... So,we've found a spot then we put our butts down...hahaha... We really chat alot yesterday....music...bands...and stuffs....huhu.... Enough yaking,afterwards I decided to give him the birthday cake.... Somemore,it's a chocolate cake,it's his favourite.... (He look so cute while munching it... =P) We took some photos and let out our craziness.... After rounding around at vivo,the both of us decided to go back tampines to have our dinner... We rode the bus...damn the journey was long...and I fell asleep on his shoulder again..haha... Pity him...have to bear with my heavy head....hee.... But overall,I really enjoyed the moment with him..... Can't wait to see you again dear!! **Today** It's Baya & Hazie's last day at work!! They'll be flying off to phillipines.... Gonna miss them both..... Take care girls!! And let me,shout out this part to my friend,Farah.... At last,you are single girl!!! Nevermind,don't think about your idiotic ex anymore.... He's just immature...You deserve a better guy than him... Anything,we are here for you girlfriend!!! Okie dokie then... Got to go.... Tired already.... Haha.... ~END~ Labels: I miss u already..... |