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Cure this boredom.... 1)How do you call yourself? (What's your name?): -I call myself Billy.... 2)How old are you? -18 this year.... 3)Where you live? -In an apartment... 4)With whom? -Family of course... 5)Do u remember your childhood memory? -Hmm...that's hard.... 6)Things to do when you're bored? -Sleep....hahaha... 7)Who is the person u talk to when you're bored? -Myself?? Hehe... 8)What's the last thought that crossed your mind? -What am I going to wear tomorrow?? 9)Who were last people you spoke with online? -Zee & Syazi...hehe... 10)Who was the last person u text with? -U know I know....haha... 11)What was the last thing you did before bed last night? -Charge my hp... 12)If you could have an accent, which would you have? -I wouuld like to have the british accent.....hee.... 13)Do you remember your dreams? -Hmm....not so.... 14)Who knows you better than anyone else (honestly)? -Go figure...hahaha... 15)Would you rather be single and have lots of friends or married? -Dude,I would rather both....my loved ones meant alot to me... 16)Do you really tell your significant other everything? -Just to make them understand me better.... 17)Have you ever cried in public just to get attention? -Hell no!! 18)Have you ever lied just to get attention? -Hmm.....have I?? 19)Would you ever colaborate with a friend's lie just to make them look cool? -I dont think that's a good idea... 20)Assume you were rich, where would you buy your clothes? -Armani?? 21)What makes you smile? -When I get to make a person happy.... 22)What makes you frown? -When harsh words hits me hard.... 23)Do you speak any foreign languages? -Nopez.... 24)What's your ultimate goal/dream? -To become a paramedic one day....insya-allah(in God's will)... ~END~ Labels: Listening to:River Flows In You by Yiruma Carlisle,You're Haunting Me... I'm being nuts,yes I am!! Twilight this is all your fault!! Especially,when I saw the baseball scene...gah!! Gosh...he's old... Maybe the way they make-up his features,it's like so...habba-habba!! Crap! Now,I've fallen for Dr.Carlisle!!! But,it's not obssessive though...just a crush....hee.... Anyway,he looks cute on the baseball scence....hehehehe..... ~END~ Labels: Zee...Emmett is at a lower rank...haha....   Music Review Time!!! Im addicted to a new band!! Hell yea....hahaha.... As I was searching for new songs at purevolume.com,I came across with this band... They called themselves 'Cash Cash'.... Cute huh?? Hee... They look cute too anyway....haha.... So yea.... The first song that I listen to them was "Party In Your Bedroom"... It was groovy Im telling ya!! Actually,this music I've heard few weeks ago.... But I update it now because I'M GETTING ADDICTED TO IT DAY BY DAY!!! Hahaha... So,I thought I share it with you guys.... Come on,boys & girls!! Let's shake it & groove it!!! ~END~ Tired and Uninspired..... Have you ever thought about how life actually started? -Uh huh.....too many histories on it... Would you ever travel out of state to see a band that you like? -Yup!! I wish I could do that.... Do you judge people on what they look like? -Sometimes...I mean who doesn't right?? Have you ever wondered how many people have lied to you? -Yea....but let's face it,we sometimes do lie.... If you could be president for a day, what would you do? -I'll try my best to save those who are in need... You're getting colored contacts; what color would they be? -Purple baby!! If you were a crayon; what color would you be? -Yup,you're right! It's purple again!! Weee~ Do you know who REALLY invented the question mark? -No...not interested.... What do you think life would be like if computers weren't invented? -I think life will be full of boredom..... Have you ever made a random video in Walmart? -Never... Are you guilty of using internet lingo? -What's that?? If you randomly got the ability to fly; where would you fly first? -New Zealand!! What would you do with $1,000,000? -Gosh.....I would spend it wisely though.... Have you ever been so happy that you started crying? -Yup....it happens everytime... Why does the human body cry when it's happy, sad, or in pain? -Hmm...well,it's nature I guess.... God's creation.... Have you ever written a reminder on your hand? -Hmm...... Ever wonder how a small MP3 player could hold SO many songs? -Hell yea.... Do you think you have to be skinny in order to be beautiful? -Nope.... Would you ever kiss someone with facial hair? -Err.....hehe..... Have you ever drooled in public? -Hahaha..... Do agree that myspace is taking over the entire teenage population? -Yes...I agree... Have you ever met a mainstream band? -No....I wish I can meet one.... Have you ever yelled at an electronic as if it could hear you? -Done that to other stuffs too....hee.... Have you ever been bitten by a dog? -Nope...thank God.... Would you ever shave your head? -...... Have you ever spelt your name in Alphabet Soup? -Nah... What do you think would happen if the Earth suddenly stopped spining? -I guess that's the end of us..... What did you want to be when you were little? -I wanted to be an artist..... Have you ever drawn a picture with sidewalk chalk? -Not at all.... What is the worst possible way to die? -Being tortured..... Have you ever burnt yourself with a lighter? -It has never come across into my mind... Would you ever meet someone you met online? -Haha...done that many times... Honestly, why are you taking this survey? -For fun??? What's your favorite online game? -Not sure yet though.... What do you think of gay/bisexual people? -I got no comments.....that's their life.... Have you ever kissed the TV? -I wonder..... Have you ever thrown your cellphone across the room? -Im not that nuts...hahs... Do you think they should stop animal testing? -Hmm...maybe/maybe not?? Have you ever been hit with a ball in gym class? -Many times.... Honestly, have you ever made fun of someone who was mentally challenged? -Nope.... Why does the human body need sleep to function? -Because without sleep,we are lack of energy cause we are too tired... If you ever become famous; what would you be famous for? -Let me see.... Do you think there really is a cure for cancer? -Hopefully.... Have you ever gotten a ring stuck on your finger? -Yup....once or twice.... What's the worst injury you've ever gotten? -My forehead being bumped at the floor?? If you ever started a clothing line; what would it be called? -JEZIREN.....me and zee owns it....haha.... Have you ever chickened out of riding a rollercoaster? -I have never ride a rollercoaster before... What's the most unusual place you've slept? -Hmm....in his arms?? Hee... If you were a popsicle; what color and flavor would you be? -Purple again!! But I'll have the vanilla flavour....keke.... If you weren't taking this survey, what else would you be doing? -Slacking I guess..... Walking like a zombie..... Busy,busy,busy...My schedule was pack these few days.....Feeling so damn lethargic... Gah!! Need more sleep!! Nevermind...cause it's survey time!! What do you look like? -Nerdy..... Are you single or taken? -Taken since 280807... Describe your life in 5 words: -Craziness,Complicating,Loving,Living & Learning.... Have you ever been in love? -Actually I am right now.....hahaha... Why did you break up with the last guy you went out with? -Cause he wanted to & I respect his decision.... Do you think of yourself as attractive? -Nah.....I call myself "Fugly"...(Freaking Ugly) Hahaha....... Do a lot of people like you? -Erm.....I dont know.... What grades do you get at school? -Hehehe.......sucks.... Name off all your close friends: -Zee,Faddy,Rina,Wati & Syazi.... Are you quiet & shy or loud & outgoing? -Quiet & shy it is.....hee.... How old are you? -18 this year.... Where do you live? -Someplace somewhere..... Do you (mentally) beat yourself up over small things? -Yea....sometimes.... Are you 2-faced? -...... Do you go out with a lot of people? -Nah...usually in twos or threes..... How often are you at home? -Very often.....haha.... What do you like to do on weekends? -I work on weekends so yea.... What is your clothing style? -Just being myself.... Do people judge you a lot? -I guess so..... Do you like your life? -Eventhough alot of problems occur,I still appreciate my life... What is one thing you want to do before you die? -Be a better daughter.... Do you want to get married? -Hopefully one day.....heee.... Have kids? -*Blush* Do you belive in abortion? -Never....it's a sin..... Do you go to church? -I'm a muslim so I go to the mosque.... Do you get in fights over things that dont really matter? -Ya.....sometimes..... Name 3 things you are wearing right now: -Erm...T-shirt,bermudas,my bangle.... Name 3 things you did today? -Chill at home,went out,and laugh it out loud! Weee~ Do you flirt with the opposite sex too much? -No....did I?? ~END~ Labels: Listening to:Candles by Hey Monday Paint the rainbow black..... When's the last time you really smiled? -Hmm...a few hours ago I guess?? Is there any song that really touches you? -Yup.... "Can't take that away by Mariah Carey" When's the last time you said sorry? -Err....can't remember....hee.... Are you a forgiving person? -Yup.... Who's the last person to compliment you? -Nobody... Do you like cold or hot weather more? -I prefer neutral.... Who was the last person you forgave? -.... Are you scared of dying? -I am... Who is your closest friend? -Zee.... What song are you listening to right now? -Save you by Simple Plan... How many favorites do you have in your computer? -Hmm....not sure... Do you have a digital camera? -No....I wish I had one... What are you looking forward to? -A bright future ahead.... How many surveys do you take each day? -Just once... Do you ever laugh at really inappropriate times? -Hahaha..alot of times dude... Do you like The Calling? -Nah... What's the last thing you bought? -Nothing at the moment... How many Christmas gifts did you buy this year? -I don't celebrate christmas dude... What's your favorite thing about the Internet? -Erm....my blog?? Who was the last person you hugged? -My dad..before he went to work... Have you ever thought you were being stalked in Walmart? -I dont think we have a walmart here... When you get mad, do you say things you don't mean? -Yup.... Are you impatient? -When it really gets on my nerves,then yes... What's something you're afraid of? -Losing someone I love... Have you ever lost someone because of something you did? -Im not sure... What's the one thing that matters the most to you? -Happiness... Who is your hero? -Err.... Is there anyone who's always there for you, no matter what? -Yup,my bestie,Zee... Do you cry easily? -Yea.... Do you talk to people while you're waiting in line? -If they are crap people like me,then I do... Do you listen to online radio stations? -Not so right now... Is there someone you miss? -Yes.....really badly..... Do you have any pens with scented ink? -Used to have it but it has been thrown away..haha... Who's the last person that comforted you? -.... Do you like Dollar General? -Wha?? Where's your favorite place to vacation? -Hmm...I wish I could go to Christchurch at New Zealand... Do you have a wide variety of music tastes? -Sort of..yea... What's the name of the last movie you watched? -Hmm....Ayat-Ayat Cinta...hahs... Do you like the computer or tv better? -Can't decide... Have you ever made your own survey? -Yup.... Do you have a big house? -Nope... Who has the biggest heart you know of? -That person would be my mum.... Does size matter? -Not really..I think?? Do you smile in pictures? -Yup.....smile like I mean it...haha... Can you tell your parents anything? -Not everything..... ~END~ Labels: It tears me up inside..... Just Go And Drown Yourself,Egoistic Man!! I'm so freakingly pissed off today....My sister's ex drop me a message today... (You guys,will be like,"Wha??Why in the hell he would want to message you??") Yup..he did guys...cause my sis ignore his presence....So,yea,he came looking for me.. The story goes like this... My sis told me and my mum that suddenly this ego,wanted to patch up with my sis again... As my sis already move on,she kinda rejected.... If I was him,I will like move on and leave the past behind... But......Nooo!!This ego said that all this while my sis didnt love him and he's giving my sis one last chance to be with him again...WTH??!! Dude,come on,you're a grown up,don't act childish will you?? After that,he message me,saying that my sis don't want him anymore.... I'm a soft-hearted person,it's hard for me not to reply... So,I replied him nicely that my sis doesn't want the past to repeat itself.... Stubborn he is,he said that my sis wanted to take revenge on him and make him suffer.... Gosh....this man is killing me..... The irritating part was,he called my sis a liar...A LIAR!! What is up with him?? Then my blood starts to boil...I warned him not to call my sis a liar as I said it was all true.... I told him to realize his mistakes first before pointing his finger at others..... Nevertheless,you wanna know what he replied?? ""Nobody cares about me anymore,not even you.I'm very thankful to all of you who have made me in this kind of situation."" After I read that,I was totally frustrated.... He's blaming me too??? How could he?? Then he say I didn't appreciate what he has done all this while... WTF??!!! Come on man!! Get a life!!! You're like one pathetic desperate man!!! Urgh!!! You are starting to make me hate you now..... And THANKS for making my day!! And THANKS for making me cry!!! I tried to be nice and this is what I get?? Being in the wrong too?? Gosh...sometimes it doesn't pay off to be nice.... So,now,don't look for me,cause the presence of you makes me go..BLUEK!!! Just shut up,and go find yourself another woman!! My sis deserves a better guy than you!! Hah!!! Labels: I could just kill you......... Yea,Im The Dork And You're Just A Suck Up..Hah!! 1)Are you beautiful or The Plain Jane 2)Shy or the outgoing 3)Milk or syrup 4)Extrovert or Introvert 5)You want to be a Survivor than being a begger 6)You usually Love To Hate Me than hate to love me 7)Prefer to be called a Nerd than an irritating biatch 8)You need Sleeping Pills or your ventolin right now 9)You love being Yourself or a famous superstar 10)Sometimes you wish you could kill someone 11)You are perfect or Unperfect 12)You are in a cheery or In An Agony situation for this moment 13)You love your friends 14)You say the the S*** Word more or the F*** word more 15)You dislike aliens(they creep me out) 16)You love nature 17)To you,love Can Be Beautiful But Complicating or it's just a waste of time 18)Im too emotional at times 19)You let out your feelings through anger or Through Poetries 20)Sometimes I'm afraid to look upon the future ~END~ Labels: Let me be your ragged doll tonight...... "I dream of the day when you'll realize that I was always the one for you. But now I think, what if that day never comes? " As I lay silently on my bed, My thoughts started to wander off, In the sweet memories of you & me, That's when the tears keeps coming on.... I tried to stay calm, But I just cant, I feel so agitated, Suddenly these thoughts went blank..... My heart was hurting, I feel like screaming, I want this feeling to end, And to start believing..... Why does it have to be this way?? Is there no more meaning to our love?? I'm really terrified, Cause I really love you so..... I understand your situation, I know your life is in a mess, But where am I right now?? Is it in your heart or someplace that means less?? I miss you, And it's the fact, I miss the old you, When can I get that person back?? I hope you'll feel better soon, And I could see a real smile from you, I'll pray for our blessings from Him, So that our relationship can make it through.... ~END~ Labels: Listening to:Save You by Simple Plan Shuffle those songs and hit it!! This song represents how you're feeling right now: Stop & Stare by One Republic Your love life is currently like this: It's Not Over by Secondhand Serenade You should strip to this song: Scream by Avenged Sevenfold This is the song that will be played at your funeral: Nero's Decay by Alesana Life in general is described by this song: Get Over It by Avril lavinge A great song to sing to in the shower: As Long As You Love Me by Backstreet Boys This will tell you what's coming up in your love life: Kisah Cintaku by PeterPan Your financial situation is represented by this: Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park This is how you feel but won't admit you do: Apology by Alesana The song you're embarrassed to like, but really do: Irresistible by Jessica Simpson This describes your family life: Innocence by Avril Lavinge Fair warning. Tomorrow's going to be like this: This Is Usually The Part Where People Scream by Alesana This song will get through the day: A Little Piece Of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold This is a song you will always remember: That Thing You Do by The Wonders This describes you and your best friend: 4eva by The Veronicas You and your ex are represented by this song: Tentang Kita by PeterPan This is what you're night's going to be like: River Flows In You by Yiruma This song should be played at your wedding: Exceptional by Jojo Write the first lyrics from this song: Nothing To Lose by Billy Talent -Need more friends with wings..... The song that have any special meaning for you?: Tonight by Fm Static This is how you feel about people in general: The River by Good Charlotte This song tells about your fears: Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan This song describes the last movie you saw: When I'm Gone by The Click Five This is about you and your mom: Slumber by OAG This song is always able to calm you down: Unbreakable by Fireflight Labels: Music....they bring me to life....  I'm loving the nature...... Me and Nurul watching the sunset.......Live in the present..... Heyz bloggy!!! Well,it's time for me to update ya!! Hee.... First thing's first,about my weekends..... Last saturday,I went to the class outing at East Coast Park.... It was fun and a bit of.....lame......(haha,don't take it to hard guys)... It's just that I guess we couldn't think of any fun games on that day.... But overall,I did have fun..... =) So,let's continue... When me and my pals arrived,most of the peeps were not there.... Some of them couldn't make it..... One thing,I regret was I didn't bring another t-shirt....idiotic me.... It was really freaking warm on that day..... My teacher said I was wearing too nice for the day.... And I was like "Wha??",for me it was simple.... But Faddy said I was like going for a gig or something... And Willie said I look like a punk girl.....hahahaha.... Well,whatever it is,I think I still look simple though.....hee...... Let's see what did I do for the whole day...... I went cycling with Faddy(I had a blast!!),I sit at the waterbreaker with my friends and talk shiet...hee...and so on..... It was fun to be with the wind......and seeing the water swooshing across the shore..... So,that was saturday,I really enjoyed myself..... Now,sunday....it was a very busy day for me too..... It was my cousin's engagement day..... Gosh...I was feeling very sleepy for the whole day.... But the great part was I get to meet my nephews and nieces.... They are freakingly adorable..... Around 1+pm like that,me and the others brought the gifts to his fiance's house.... We went there to exchange the gifts with her family..... Okie,so let's skip and skip and skip the situation...... Overall,Im happy for my cuzzy..... Happy engagement Abang Faizal & Kakak Ita..... Hopefully everything went well...... Amin..... Kla,I got to go.... Kinda tired already.....heee..... Update ya soon!! Toodles!! ~END~
All I Need..... Sometimes...... sometimes i just need: Myself back.... somtimes i want: A fresh start... somtimes i like to: Get too emotional..... sometimes all it takes: For a stupid joke to make me smile again.... somtimes i picture: The place I would love to be.... sometimes i wish: For him to get better.... sometimes i find: It hard to believe..... sometimes i take: My sister's clothes!! Hehe.... sometimes i look: At my stupidity and laugh at it...haha.... sometimes i hate: Ignorance..... sometimes it’s nice: To sit down & be with the wind... sometimes it hurts: To think about the past.... sometimes it makes me happy: To see my loved ones smile.... sometimes it’s sad: To see them getting hurt.... sometimes i listen: To slow/jazzy music too.... sometimes i sleep: Straight!! Hee.... sometimes i like to watch: Comedians on stage!! sometimes i feel: Exhausted..... sometimes i never: Think of the positive side.... sometimes i really: Want to be in a peaceful place..... When I’m ...... sad, i want: Just to be left alone.... happy, i need: Those music to scream my ears out!!! mad, i wish: I could kill someone.... overjoyed, i find: My buttercup!! indifferent, i like to: Stare into space..... content, i never: Speak to anyone.... frustrated, all it takes: For these tears to roll down..... If...... You saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first? -Gosh....that's hard....I love the both of them....Might as well,I be the victim...... You had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose? -I would choose to go back.....sometimes it hurts to see the future.... God was standing right infront of you, what would you say to him? -I would ask him for forgiveness and protect the ones I love..... ~END~ Labels: Do I have everything?? Shoot them down,one by one.... Have you ever been shot? -Nope....thank God... Ever been stabbed? -Uh uh.... Have you ever seen a psychiatrist? -Nope,but Ive been to counselling once...hee... Attempted suicide? -That was in the past.... Have you ever smoked pot? -Smoking ain't my thing!! Blacked out from drinking? -I don't drink that stuffs..... Have you ever enacted revenge? -Nah.... What did you do? -Eventhough revenge is sweet but let's forgive & forget.... Lied to get what you want? -Sometimes.....hehe.... Found money and kept it? -Yup2....haha... Would you be a supervillian or superhero? -Erm....not sure.... Have you ever turned two people against each other? -*blank* Would you do anything to get what you want? -Haha...not always.... Do nice guys finish last? -I guess so.... Do you talk about friends behind their back? -Hmm..how bout I put it as sharing opinions?? Would you ever cheat even if you knew you wouldn't get caught? -I wouldn't dare to do it again!! Ever cuss at drivers and flip them off? -No...that's a bad thing to do.... Do you get angry a lot? -Nah.... Ever stolen someon's parking spot? -Dude,I don't have a licence... Ever saved someone from danger? -Have I?? Would you climb a tree to save someone's kitten? -Hahaha....... How many fights have you gotten into? Who started them? -Once...but that was freaking long ago.... How many have you lost? -Once.... Ever broken someone's nose? -I wish....hahs.... If a friend robbed a liquor store would you rat on them? -It depends.... If someone had a flat tire would you help them? -Sure...if I have the energy....hahahaha.... Have you ever spit in someone's drink? -Ewww...grose!! Do you eat food that has fallen on the floor? -Once in awhile.....hehehe... Do you look at porn? -Obviously No!!! If you saw your enemy at an intersection would you moon them? -Hmm....... Would you ever kill someone? -Can I?? Have you ever seriously considered killing someone? -Hell Yea!! What's the worst thing you've ever done? -Is stealing gummies the worst thing?? Hehehe.... ~END~ Labels: Listening to:Sweetheart, you are sadly mistaken by Alesana Kiss me,Kill me...... Have you ever cried for 10 hours straight: Not really...the longest time was like 2 hours?? Do you cut yourself: Hmm....that was in the past..... Is black one of your favorite color: Yupz..... Red and black is a perfect pattern, correct?: I prefer purple with black but red is fine with me... Rock music is your favorite: Hell yea..... You love rock concerts: I've never been to one.....boo..... You cannot stand holister,or other name brands: Nah....I can still take it.... You cannot stand cheerleaders or other preps: Yea dude!! My blood boils when I see them!! Politics scare you: Sometimes....but most of the time,they were like crap.... Overly-Emotional: Hahs...... I guess so?? Bisexual: Absolutely not!! Or just Gay: Hmm.....just my clothing sometimes....hee.... Do you shop at Hot Topic?: I dont think we have that shop here.... Have numerous piercings or tattoos: I want to pierce my bottom lip!! Do you like to write or draw alot: Yesszzaaa!! Do you hate blending in: Erm.....got that feeling once in awhile but Im cool with blending in.... Do you wish you were NOT here: -_-" Do you like to be alone: When I need it..... Do you like BIG PARTIES with tons of HAPPY people: No,it freaks me out.... Labels: I want to leave my past behind me......  Aren't they adorable?? Hehe.... At last,she's engaged!!! Isn't she pretty?? A hotstuff!!  Me and my cuzzy....ILY!!Return to my original spot.... Hey ho bloggy!!! Im backies!! It's good to be home.....haha....seriously sey.... Kinda awkward leaving at there though....but I did enjoy the moment.....feeling the fresh breeze and just having a hell of a time!! Hee.... So,we took off in the middle of the night which was on saturday.....at first we really can't wait to go but halfway through,we were so sleepy and tired...... During the journey,I fell asleep halfway,but I really dont want to miss every part of it so I force myself to open my eyes.... In the end,we arrived at my aunt's house....I was so glad cause my butt was getting hurt by the minute....bah!! We arrived at her place at around 3+am.....gosh.... By the time,all we think of were the pillows....haha..... The next day,we woke up by the voices of my mum....she keeps waking us up,but what to do...luckily it was my aunt's house if not I have slept longer.....hee....So,yea,me and my sis woke up,we washed up and had our breakfast.... Later part of the day,as I was having a bad flu,I fell asleep again....So as my sis...Our bodies like couldn't take it anymore....haha..... When we wake up at night,everybody was still busy as they were getting ready for the things that they need on the next day. Me and my sis got bored so I follow her go riding on my uncle's car(without licence I mean)..hahaha.... It was a hell of a ride as been said by my uncle..hehehe... My uncle gets so nervous when my sis drove in crazy way!! Dude,luckily I didnt throw up..hahaha.... After that,I went nuts,I want to try out the motorcycle!! Hehehe.... Crazy huh?? It was fun but I had my clumsy moments....hoho.... Then the next day arrives....it was such a chaos!!! Everybody was like in a mess and crappy...hee.... The crappy part was because most of us was still feeling sleepy....hehehe.... Okie2,let's skip to the part about my cuzzy.... Finally,she's engaged!!! I'm really happy for her..... She look so pretty yesterday.....Hopefully they have a long lasted relationship..... During the afternoon,we packed our stuffs,getting ready to go home....It was sad when we were about to leave....My cuzzy was crying her heart ot as she hugged us and saying thank you to everyone.... "Darla!! We'll be back soon okay!! Take care of urself hunneh!!" =) Kla,enough talking.. I wanna download some songs that my bestie has introduce to me... Chatting with her right now!! Hee... Toodles!! ~END~ Totally addictive..... Hey ho my bloggy..... I'm feeling better by the day..... Kinda have some fcuking shit moments but Im fine already.... I mean no matter what I have to move on...... So,yea,Im grooving back to the musics!! Been listening to some bumpy songs recently..... You guys may think like "What?? Is she nuts??" Oh yes,Im kinda silly with my character but these bumpy songs help me alot...hahs... Dude,I cant help it but my legs just cant stop tapping!!! Hehehe.... The songs Ive been listening to is 'I kissed a girl ' by Kate Perry... Gosh...it's addictive Im telling ya!! It all started when I went to my bestie's blog... She put up the song by Cobra Starship,'I kissed a boy'.. Im addicted to that song too!!! Zee!!!! It's ur fault!!! Hahahaha..... Kiddings darla.....I should say thanx to u though cause the song really cheers me up.... =) Eventhough most of the lyrics sounds digusting,but it's grooly grooving.....hee.... The song is neither about gay nor lesbian stuffs..... It's just about the dudes & dudettes wanting to have fun by trying out something new..... They want to explore the extraordinary.... So,guys & girls,do u dare to do this kind of stuffs?? For me,I dont know....hahaha..... Go figure!! Oh! By the way,gonna be missing for 3 days.... I'll be at malaysia...a cuzzy of mine gonna get engaged.... Congrats hunneh!!! So,yea,gonna miss ya bloggy.... Not forgetting,miss chatting with my bestie and twinny Syazi!!! Be back soon!!! **Ps:Im gonna miss ya too sweetheat.... =) So yea,got to go... Pack my things..... See ya people!!! ~END~ Labels: Let's groove and glide...... Did he just say that??? Heyz.......... Today was like really a crappy day for me........ I don't know........ My relationship was on the rocks recently....... I thought nothing's going to happen but it did....... As his family was having some problems,he tends to keep quiet one of these days..... I understand what is he going through right now...I do...... But as I look back at our old conversations,I really miss those times.... I miss the way he makes smile and how it made my day........ I miss the old him........ But now,everything seems different...... Sometimes I see,he's changing......I dont know......... What's going on?? Is the nightmare coming true?? Because I used to have a bad dream once about us....... In that dream,suddenly he just drop a message to my phone saying that he won't need me anymore and that's it...... I felt terrifred after that.......... I told him about the dream,but he ask me not to believe in it..... Eventhough I try not to think about it,the nightmare still came....... Im scared.......scared of losing him..... Then today,his words,they just hurt me....... He was feeling down,I know,so I tried asking him what happen..... He just said that it's okay,and he don't want to talk about and burden me with all his problems... So,I replied back by saying that I don't feel that way.....to me,I rather him sharing it with me than keeping it to himself..... Then he said that eventhough he share his problems,it's still doesn't make any difference.... "What??" I asked myself... Does that mean,all this while,he share it to me,it doesn't make any difference?? Is it a useless thing to do?? And the way he type the word "bye",it's like.....gosh........ I was too sad to reply him by then..... I know,his mind is in a mess,I understand..... But the way,he put it......haiz.......I cant describe the feeling....... Im not sure if Im too sensitive about it,but my type of person dislike people hitting the wrong button....... It's just too hurtful......... Maybe Im thinking too much or those words just hit me........... Haiz.......... Well,I just couldn't go on anymore... Im crying as Im typing this...... I just need to calm myself down......... =(.............. ~END~ Labels: Listening to: Like A Knife by Secondhand Serenade Dumbass Situations..... How old are you?? -18 this year... Are you a legal adult?? -Can say that...hahaha... Where were you the past ten years?? -Erm....primary two?? The worst memory that you ever had?? -A guy criticize about my looks......still cant forget about it till now.... The best memory?? -Trying to steal sweets with my primary school pal,Fake(its her nick)....haha... Have you ever kissed the opposite sex?? -Punky darling stole my first kiss!! How about the same sex?? -Yikes?? Do you have any gay friends?? -Nope....but sometimes they just act like one....hee.... What is your current mood right now?? -Lifeless..... Who are you thinking of?? -Him...... =( Do you love your girlfriends?? -Absoutely!! Who does not?? Where do you see yourself with them 20 years later?? -Hmm..let's see...married with kids and complaining about them...hehehe.... Which job would you like to have?? -Being a psychologist..... =) Any plans for tomorrow?? -Yup....sleep!!! Are you still schooling?? -Like duh!! What are your favourite colours?? -Black,purple & blue..... Do you believe love at first sight?? -Maybe..... What do you want from a guy?? -Accepting who I am inside & out.... Are you in love?? -*Wink!! Wink!!* If you have the chance to turn back time,how would you want it to be?? -I want the happiness to stay..... Do you love your family?? -Yup.... Do you used to hate them?? -Yea....but I've forgotten about it already.... Do you want to time travel?? -Hmm....I can give it a try.... What do you want in your house?? -A door where it leads me to the fantasy world...hehehe.... You want to buy... -A nikon camera!!!! Still cant get it.... What are you praying for right now?? -For a better tomorrow....... ~END~ Labels: Listening to: Why by Secondhand Serenade Hush sweetheart... Everything's going to be alright..... Hey there bloggy.... Im feeling quite exhausted these few days.... Been stressing about exams and more.....haish.... Hopefully the upcoming holidays would be a relieve for me.... ****Today... So,yea,my exam starts today.... Had the behavioural science paper...gosh....I think Im gonna flunk the paper.... I didnt answer most of my SAQs..... Boo hoo..... I was really going out of mind.... Most of the questions,I cant even remember one answer.... Is that crazy or what?? Idiotic me.....I totally miss out some of the topics.... Aaargh!!!! Damn it.... -_-" After the exam,I went to meet my hero.... It's been a long time I didnt spend time with him,so,yea,we hang out... At first,he was quiet,but when I ask him what's wrong,suddenly he brokedown infront of me... It was the very first time I saw him cry.... I've heard him cried of the phone before,but not infront of me.... I was stunned....I want to console him but I was afraid he might get at mad at me.... As he was crying,I tried giving him hugs just to let him know that Im there for him.... It lasted around how many minutes but I didnt blame him.... I really pity him.... With the life he is going through right now,Im sure he'll feel really emotional inside.... Haiz...I wish I could change his world and bring him to somewhere to have peace for himself.... ""U.....I hope u'll feel better soon....It really hurts me alot,seriously.....Eventhough u smiled at me just now,Im sure those emptiness still overtakes your heart.....Just want to tell u that,I'll always be here for u when u need me......Heart u lots....." Yea,emo moments strikes again... What to do...that's reality..... Wokie....got to go now...... Gonna studying for tomorrow's exam now..... ~END~ Labels: Dear God....show us the light of truth..... Bugged...... Do you have anything that belongs to your ex? Erm...nope... Do you like someone at the moment? Haha..it's just a crush.... Are you trying to avoid any emotion right now? Yup...still avoiding.... When was the last time you were sick? Hmm..last month I guess?? Who did you last argue with? My little bro.... Has someone ever called you ugly? I dont know....maybe..... When were you last confused? Right now,still confuse....bah! What woke you up this morning? The voice of my mum..... Who did you wake up next to? My baby buttercup....hehehe... Did you miss any calls yesterday? Hmm...nope.... Who last texted you? Punky darling....hee.... Are you in a relationship? Yup2.... =) Are you wearing any makeup? Nah.... What does your hair look like right now? In a shiet mess.... XD What are you wearing? T-shirt and bermudas.... Have you made a difference in someone's life? Hmm....did?? Who did you last comment on myspace? I don't have a myspace profile.... What emotion are you feeling? Sadness.... Any one on your mind right now? Yea..... What are you doing right now? Typing this...duh! Are you going to be home alone tonight? I hope so....but I dont think it will happen..hahs... How has your week been so far? Okie.....devestating..... Are you listening to music? Yesszaa..... Are you watching tv? Nope....dont have the mood.... Who do you trust the most? God..... Is someone mad at you right now? Im not sure.... Are you mad at anyone? -_-'' When did you last talk to someone out loud? Hmm.... Are you satisfied with your current life? So far.....yea..... What was the first thing you did this morning? Whining.... What has upset you most today? Many things.... Do you want kids someday? Hehe.... =) How about getting married? *Wink! Wink!* What are you doing friday night? Sleeping I guess?? What is the last alcoholic beverage you consumed? I dont drink alcohol....'haram' sey.... What was the last NON alcoholic beverage you drank? Longan drink....hee... What did you eat last? Black pepper chicken rice.... Are your nails painted? Nope.... How late did you stay up last night? Not sure....didnt look at the clock... Is there a couch in the room your in? Nopez.... Would you like to fall in love within the next few months? I am in love....hee.... What is the closest blue object to you? Eeyore?? Are you hot or cold right now? Cold.... What is your middle name? I dont have a middle name.... Favorite colors? Black,purple & blue.... Labels: Listening to: Fly by Hilary Duff |