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Hajar is the name. A MuslimI am,and proud of it. I choose not to deny my humanity but embrace it. I'm weird but approachable. I don't believe in karma but I believe in Qada & Qadar. ♥A nurse,who will always try to satisfy the hearts of her patients. |
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Today Im feeling sooooo damn sick.....
 I seriously don't know what happen today.... I keep sneezing and coughing all the way...and right now I'm having sore throat...Darn it!! My friends told me to take MC,but I stubbornly sain no.....cause I don't want to come back to work on saturday.....I mean who wants it right??? I rather be at home,dozing away...hahaha.... Hopefully,I'll be feeling better tomorrow.... I don't want to spread my germs to my friends and patients.....And as this is my last two days at this ward,I don't want to miss a thing...(Chey...like the song huh.....'I don;t want to close my eyes.....Okie2...I know,it sounded awful...hahs...) Wokie,moving on.....Next week is my attachy at bedok polyclinic...Gosh...I hope it wont be draggy sey.....hee..... Okie...so that's all for today....Update u soon!! Billy's out!! XD I think I just hurt my friend's feelings....
As u know,today my school celebrated nurses day...And I get to meet all my friends again!! Hehe...especially 'my baby'..(I call her my baby cause she have that cute kiddo character in her and she's younger than me...hahaha....) So,yea,at tampines interchange,I saw my clique,and we totally hug each other...hehe... When I came to school,most of my classmates were there...man!! How much I miss them!! Hehehe.... Moving on,so all of us went to the auditorium,hoping for a good day.... Nevertheless,nurses day was fun...(I don't believe I just said that...hehe..) Cause I get to see all my teacher doing all the stupid acts...hahs.... When all the performance has ended,the teachers told us to sing the happy birthday song.... As all of us were singing,a feeling of sadness suddenly struck me.... I seriously don't know why.....but I think I'm gonna miss the moments.... After that occasion,I went to hangout with my clique....and my hero too... (Yea,he followed us...hehe...) Pity my hero,he's like limping all the way.... But.......there's like something's wrong during our hangout.... Two of my friends like soooo quiet and they just be with theirselves..... I think it's because of me...... (Why??) Because Im with my hero and I guess......urgh! I don't know.... Maybe I'm the one to blame......... Sorry dear friends....maybe I just think about myself but didn't think about their feelings...... Haiz...... Forget about it..... So,that's all about today... I'm gonna watch troy right now!! Hee~ Bubbyez!! Billy's out!! XD How's this week??
Wassup my blog??!!Okie2...I know....lame.....hahaha... It has been a few days since I last update u....haha... Life is really stressful this week,or should I say my attachy.... Damn,everyday is a challenge..... Like non-stop hits.....hehe.. (Okie2...another lame moment...hee....) Anyway,this week is kinda interesting cause I change team.... It was kinda hard at first but after awhile,I get to do it.... The most embarresing part is that I cried during my shift... I don't know why..... It's like everything being stuffed inside this mini brain.... I just brokedown...... So,yea,my clinical instructor caught me crying,but I don't want to explain anything.... It's not that I don't want to share but it's hard to explain.... Sometimes these feelings appear just like that..... Next,nurses day.....shit! It's tomorrow,and I don't feel like going... But it's fcuking compulsory.....crap! If not for my friends,I dont think I'll be going to these lame thingy...hah! Hopefully,I get to hangout with my clique tomorrow.... Miss u guys alot!!!!! Actually,I also thought of bringing my hero along.... I also miss him soooo freaking much!!! Haiz....I wish I could hug him right now...... (Okie hajar...stop with the emo moments...hee....) Moving on,tomorrow hopefully it won't be sucks....hah.... So,I'll stop here..... Update u soon!! Billy's out!! XD Another week has ended.....
Hey,my bloggy....Get to update u again...hehehe..... Well,this week kinda tough....many issues man.... Many things happen here and there...haiz.... What to do.....that's nursing life i guess..... So,this week,it's my last week at my slacky cubicle.... Gonna miss my favourite patient,cause I treated him like a family already...keke... So,by next week,a new cubicle for my team.....darn...scary....hehehe... Ya,I know,I had done so many nursing skills but why is this scary?? Hmm....hard to explain.....hahaha.... But hopefully,I can finish the critical skills soon... This logbook is haunting me man......shish!! But I'm glad tomorrow,I'll be meeting my bestie.... Gonna go nuts with her...hahahaha.... How I wish my hero could join me also....... Pity him alot.......he just injured his leg recently and I can't be there for him..... I felt totally useless..... I mean I should at least visited him right?? But I didn't...... I'm a bad girlfriend am I?? I didn't make an effort to go down to his place and at least give him a hug...... Aaargghh!! (U......I'm sorry........) Okie2.....before I cry,let's change topic..... So,yea,meeting her tomorrow... Gonna take pics and be our idiotic self!! Hahaha.... So.....that's all.... I'm kinda tired today...... My legs are crying....hehehe... So,I'll update again soon!! Billy's out!! ~END~ Monday,here I come....(Oh god.......)
Time fly so fast these two days......And I don't think I have enough rest.....But when I'm at work,time will pass by so freaking damn slow.....hate it....... I'll be working in the morning shift,three days straight from monday onwards..... So the last two days will be in the afternoon shift......urgh! Sucks..... Want to know why?? Cause in the afternoon there's nothing much to do only the parameters part are busy......that sucks too..... Definetely,when I came tomorrow,there'll be more new patients..... Hopefully,most of them were like my favs one...hehe... It's not that Im very choosy......nevermind....it's hard to explain.....hah... Anyways,being two days at home wasn't enough for me.....I keep woking up early,I guess Im already get used to the morning timing.....but it's very tiring sey....boo hoo..... I thought yesterday I want to hangout with my bestie,but my legs just couldn't take it sey.... Miss her lots.....not only her,I also miss my other girlfriends......haiz... When will this attachy end man?? I can't wait to be in our laughters again..... The memories keep coming back.....hainyah........ Whatever it is,I hope I can do well for this attachy and reach for my goal to become a paramedic!! Woo hoo!! Come on hajar,u can do it!! XD Okie then..that's all.... So,the dork is outta the building!! ~END~ Thank God It's Friday......
At last!!!! It's friday!! Two days off!!! Woohoo!!!Gosh......my legs feel like dying already....(ya,I know,how can my legs simply died?? Duh!! Bluffing only....) Anyway,these five days in the hospital,was very tiring for me..... Fun,yea....but there were many challenges that I have to face..... And I don't even have time for my other friends cause Im too tired to chat with anybody,to ask about their day and more......I feel so bad........Haiz...... Today,at first it went fine....but in the middle of the day,something screwed up.... Me and my friends didn't do some chartings properly.....So,yea,we get scolded...hah.... But after that,everything went back to normal.... I chat with my patients again..... The hours passed on....and all of us can't wait to get home and sleep..haha.. As for me,I can't wait to meet my hero...hehe...miss him so badly.....keke... He make my day by giving me a ring as my belated birthday present..hehe... Cute right?? Gosh......miss him already......hahax.... (Okie2....hajar....calm down ur hormones.....hehehe....) These two days have to revise my theory hard man..... Can't make the same mistakes anymore....... Okie then..... My eyes are getting sleepy...need my rest already....hehe..... So,I'm outta here!! ~END~ Just get to type today....
Few days ago,I was like a normal playful kid but since this attachy,I have to be more responsible than ever before....At first,yea,it was tough....I was totally blur like a sotong....haha... Anyway,I was kinda afraid to the core but a few hours later,everything went smoothly... Get to chat with the patients,it was fun...I even had my favourite ones,but unfortunately,one of them is being transfered,and the others are being discharged soon......sad sey.....boo hoo...... Well,today,I get to experince a new thing and that is changing diapers for the patient...... As u know,my ward is a men's ward.....freaky huh?? Changing diapers?? Hehehe.... How about friends?? Hmm.....well,I get to meet new friends.... Yea,they are fun but I dont know why that sometimes I feel awkward.... It's not that I don't like them,I do...but...I guess maybe my humour ain't the same as them.... But I still try to get along though....they are good people....hehe.... (Nice knowing u guys...) What I most worried about is that my logbook only had one signature but most of my friends have more....... Darn it....I wish I get to do the stuffs faster.....so I need not have to worry so much..... Mind is going nuts and brain cells are getting killed each day...haha..joking..... I just hope I get to go through this well.....and be back in school.... Miss my classmates especially my partner-in-crimes...... Can't wait to be with them again..... So,that's all for today..... Kinda having a migrane right now...... Im out!! ~END~ Poem(2).....
Hold On To Your Words....It's easy to say that you love me, It's easy to say that you do care, But these words,when our relationshi[ grows older, Will it always be there? Our love has always been a wonderful thing, Each day,I hope and pray, That your presence will not be gone, And you are here to stay.... So,darling,hold on to your words, Don't let them fade away, For I,will do the same, Because love is not a game to play........ ~END~ What's wrong with me today??
I don't know why my day kinda sucks today......Got up in the morning,mum woke me,telling me to follow her to go geylang,to have my dad's pants altered..... Okie...that part I don't mind.....but there's a part of it,i'm kinda bored cause my mp3 is with my sis,so there'll be no fcuking music at my ears......hate it..... Moving on....later mum was shouting at me cause I was using the hp while I was crossing the road....ain't I dumb?? Then she kept nagging about it..... I know.....I deserve it......I shouldn't have done it in the first place........ Anyway,geylang...uurgh!! I hate the place's condition just now.....sucks to the core!! After me and mom send the pants for alteration,we thought we gonna have lunch.. (Okie2...I know this part is confusing cause I said I woke up in the morning and now lunch??I skipped my breakfast,that's why....haha...) As I was saying or typing,we already arrive at the place to have our meal...... Darn it,I hate the place.....but since mom wanted to eat their porridge,I just follow her needs.... ***Inside the eating place(I dont want to mention the name) Okie,I already got whatI wanted and was lining up to pay the meal... Suddenly,there's this makcik,keep pushing me in order just to get to the front of the line.. Feeling pissed off,I just let her cut the line.... (Hey,I don't mind doing it but is it hard to say this phrase,"EXCUSE ME"??People nowadays...) Whatever.....after her then comes another makcik.... Okie,she said the word "excuse me" but in a hard way,and just cut the line... WTF???!! That just made my day(in a sarcastic way).... Then comes another woman trying to do the same,SHISH WOMAN!!! DON'T U PEOPLE KNOW THE MEANING OF "WAIT FOR UR TURN" Without giving any of my dorky face,I just ignore her until it's my turn....HAH!! Had my meal already,then me and mom,bring our ass-ess out from the idiotic place.... Gosh,I hope I won't have to eat there again....(if totally desperate then I have to).. Next,mom wanted to buy some clothes for herself so as Im in the same the same situation as her,I told her to go to the shop where we usually brought our clothes always.... Arriving there,mom got what she wanted but not me... (Why is it hard to get just the simple clothing for me??Stupid shops.....) Nevertheless,I just go through the clothes eventhough most of them look like shit....haha.. After that,mom said that dad was going to pick us up,yey!(In sarcastic way.....) While waiting for him,I thought I wanna check out other shops for a dress.. (It's hard to find pretty dresses nowadays...shish!!) Finally,Ive found one....but......when I was about to try it out,my dad came...uurgh!! But whatever it is,mom knows I want that dress,so he told dad to wait for us for awhile... I thought he already wanted to stop the car,as I wanted to open the door,he shouted at me.. (Wokay,another mistake...hajar,what the fcuk is wrong with u today??) ****In the car... Crap!!No music at my ears,that sucks......hearing them talk about the same thing almost everyday..... And my dad keeps complaining about little things here and there...Shish dad!! Stop it already....u have a daughter here...HELLO!! (Hands waving at the back seat) ***At home.. Okie,my lappy is on and I wanna have some time alone... Dad came into the room,and there goes my boredness again.... Aaargh!!!I wanna have privacy!!!Dad,please........ (That's what my heart said just now) Okie,so that's it.....day sucks but Im still surviving though.... HAH!! So.....thanx to my bloggy,Im feeling much better now....Thanx MR.Bloggy!! Aite...I know Im talking to myself right now...hehe... So,signing off now!! Cya soon!! ~END~ This is all about billy...
1)What's your name??-Billy....haha.... XD 2)I mean,what's your real name?? -Why should I tell??Shish.... 3)What's your favourite colour?? -Easy.....black,blue and purple..haha 4)Pants or skirts?? -Duh!!Pants.... 5)Girlfriends or guyfriends?? -I prefer girlfriends....they understood my weird-ness...hehe 6)Doraemon or pokemon?? -What a stupid question!!Of course doraemon!!Hahaha!! 7)Paramedic or nurse?? -Are u kidding??Paramedic is my passion!! 8)How many ex-boyfriends u had?? -Hmm...two...yup,i know pity me...hehe 9)Do you have a boyfriend now?? -Yup yup....anad I love him to the core!! Haha..... 10)Did you guys ever make out?? -Hey!!That's privacy!!More about me please.... 11)What are your hobbies?? -Hmm,mostly on writing poems.... 12)What is the thing that you hated the most?? -Seeing my loved ones cry.... 13)What is the one thing you like the most?? -Cheering up people... 14)What type of music are you into?? -Im still in the rock scene though...hehe 15)Where would you like to be right now?? -At the beach.....and be with the wind.... 16)Which country would you like to visit?? -New Zealand!!Gosh.....that's my dream place.... 17)Which singer are you in loove now?? -Dawn from fireflight...hey...I'm not a lesby aite.... 18)What are u wearing right now?? -Erm....shirt and cargo pants?? 19)Dorky or hot?? -I prefer dorky...hehe 20)What's your favourite song for now?? -Hmm......that will be,"Unbreakable by Fireflight" Continued......... ~END~ Oh gosh!! It's already wednesday!! Darn it!!
Gee.......suddenly,it's going to be the end of my holiday......bored....haha..Next week,I'm already starting my attachy(as in attachment at hospital,I make a short term out of it..hehe).. Anyway,Im half looking foward to it and half not.....kinda nervous..... Don't know why.......but most of my friends say,it's going to be fun and interesting... Hmm,well,I guess I just try my best..... But I'm really happy today,my friends totally make my day..... Because I think without them,my blog won't be this nice.... If I edit it,confirm it'll look lame.....hehe So ya,it look so emo,I know...... But I just love the art of it.....hahax.... Okie tokie then.... That's the end of it....Im really fcuking hungry right now...haha Billy's outta the building!!! ~END~ Poem......
Thinking Positive....Or Just Pretending.............Sitting down with my friend, And we began to talk about our lives, She told me that she hate with what she’s going through right now, She say that our life is like a beautiful lie... Slowly I began to speak, Explaining that we have to stay positive, No matter what we are going through, There will always be the light of thruth... She heed my advice, She then smiled, Confessing that I’m a great friend, Who would always be her light.... I smiled back, But then I look away.... I’ll always be her light.... But.....where is my light?? The light that would take this emptiness away.... I always say to myself to stay positive.... Or am I just pretending?? Im not sure................... Done by: BILLY.......:28/6/08 I have a syndrome!!
What time u woke up today??>hmm...11.20am i guess.... What's the first thing u do when wake up?? >I check my hp... After that?? >I go bathe lah.... Had your breakfast?? >Yup....i ate a slice of pizza just now,my mum brought it back from work... Are your family members at home?? >Only my mum and me...but she's already asleep... So you're alone now?? >Yup2..... What are u doing right now?? >Duh!Updating blog.... Okie2...besides this?? >Hmm....chatting with my friend.... I see...not going out today?? >Nope...just stay at home.... Don't have any plans this week?? >I guess not....my holiday is ending soon....I prefer staying at home.... When is your attachment starting?? >Next monday,7th july..... Are up for it?? >Hmm...not so..... Why?? >Don't know....but i'll try my best... Are u missing your friends?? >Oh gosh!!I miss them to the core!! Err.....okie......how about your hero?? >Hey...of course I miss him...always..... Have u revise ur stuffs?? >No.......sigh........I need to revise soon....darn it.... What's the main thing that you are looking foward to next week?? >My friends of course!!Cant wait to go nuts with them!!!Hehe... >Hopefully,everything goes well when I start my attachy......... ~END~ Just like any other day...
Well,I woke up today at 11am today....oh gosh,why do I always wake up early??Nevermind..Anyway,I got up and when I look at my mum's bedroom,it seems like the tv is watching her..hahax...pity my mum.....So,I switch off tv and do my normal routine....Go and shower,after that have my breakfast...... When Im done with my meal,I try to look at for any interesting shows on the tv but after continously changing the channels,I say to myself "that's it!!".Hehe...so,back into my room,turn on my lappy and just surfing the net... Darn,my day is like the same schedule always..... Haiz......how wish my cupboard can bring me to some place new...(like narnia??) Err....no.....like doraemon's drawer...hah... Well,I guess,I'll live my life this way..... Boring as usual...haha ~END~ |